INFATUATED-LOVE

2009-12-02T17:37:00.001-08:00

No longer here :D
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Relink please !

Girls dont mean what they say .

2009-11-26T15:21:00.000-08:00

Girls , do you agree you dont mean what you say ?
If you ask your bf to leave you alone ,
it is true that you want him to leave you alone ?
If you tell him you're alright ,
is it true that you're alright ?
If you tell him you dont wish to see him ,
is it true that you dont wish to see him ?
If you say you dont want to talk to him ,
is it true that you dont wanna talk to him ?

I found out , i dont really mean what i say .
And i'm seriously being crushed & agonized just because
I DONT MEAN WHAT I SAID . Fuk !
Carry on reading if you're interested to know .
Its about things that happen between me , my bf and my dad .

I asked him to stay , he said he cant .
Well obviously i've to act like i dont care if he stays or not .
And i even ask him to take a cab home .
The first time he asked " I go le uh ?"
I replied " Okay " *unwillingly*
He asked again " I really go off le uh ?"
I replied " Bye " * heart breaking"
And there , he left .

This incident seriously made me flashback about the past .
After my parents divorced , i'll get to see my dad
only on weekends . He'll bring me back home every sunday .
That very night , he sent me home ..
Me: Papa , can you stay abit longer ? I miss you .
Papa: Er , i dont think so , its kinda late .
Me: Please papa , please ? *started crying"
Papa: Sorry , wait for me on friday k ? I bring you out again :)
Me: No , i dont want , please ? Just for awhile ?
Papa: *keep pushing me away* Faster go in la !
Me: Papa , why you cry ? *Hugged him at the same time crying*
Papa: Why you dont listen , i never cry la . You dont cry please ?
Me: You go in with me , i dont cry .
Papa: Okay okay .
So , we both went in .
I sit on the sofa with him , dont wanna bath or sleep .
Just wanna look at him , dont know why .
Than he said : Girl , go bath . Papa wait for you here k ?
Me : No , you liar .
Papa : Really , i will wait for you k?
Me : Really ? Ok , wait for me uh ! Dont lie or i'll hate you .
Papa : Ok ok :)
I went in the bathroom and i heard the door opened .
So i put on my clothes and rushed out .
My dad was nowhere to be seen at the sofa .
I started banging on the wall , and my grandma open the door .
I rushed out , he ran a distance away .
I started chasing and crying : Papa , dont leave me alone , please !
* I seriously cried when typing this *
My boyfriend did this to me last night .
Can you imagine that scene ? The same thing happen AGAIN .
I'm so sad , i felt so handicapped , i cant do anything to stopped my love one .
My dad , brother and him was the only guys i loved so much .
I hope my only brother will never do that to me , god blessed .

I seriously loved you .
You told me you're heart broken , what about me ?
You might think that its just a small matter , to me , you're everything .
I love you Baby , i seriously do .
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But , i'm seriously disappointed . sighhhhhhh !

FRIENDS SUCKS !

2009-11-26T05:28:00.000-08:00

Sometimes i agree when people says that nothing last forever .
But to me , family and boyfriend are forever :D
Friends ? Nahs , they simply suckssss , mind me .
They need you , they call you , when they dont , fuck it .
Laughs , well you guys simply know obviously who are you .
Maybe you can add one more line in your profile , "I'm selfish :)"
With a smiley face at the back can make you more friendly ?
I'm not asking you to change , please think about it la fuk .
Please understand when i indicate FRIENDS , not my close friends .
Alright , i just wasted my time ranting about some retardssss -.-"

Chalet , Chalet , Chalet !!

2009-11-24T02:35:00.000-08:00

Well , i'm finally back from the chalet :D
First day , celebrated granny's birthday .
Second day , played Black Jack ....
Third day , Black Jack and Mahjong :D Favourite !!
So , i seriously enjoyed and i'm booking this chalet for my birthday .
Heard that only Lester korkor will be able to book at a low price cause he's a pilot .
Came back this morning , shared a cabby with brother .
Laughs ! I was so tired that i slept once i reach Bi's place .
Currently blogging and playing my Red Cliff , i miss it !
Hmmms , i guess we're going out for dinner now .
Well , enjoy the photos :D

SAF CHALET :D

2009-11-22T21:13:00.000-08:00

Firstly , Happy birthday to my Granny :D
Celebrated her birthday on the Friday night .
Lots of photos to be updated , currently using my aunt's lappy
to briefly update some things that happen .
Last night , couldnt sleep well .
Finally get to shut down my eyes around 7 ?
Than sleep all the way till 12 plus thanks to my little cousin
who came up and wake us up .
Our room was seaview :D So nice lahhhhh ~
Total of five days four night , i stayed over for two nights only .
Last night , sleep in between my brother and my boyfriend !
The two of them seriously squeeze me to hell .
So i wake Bi up and change place with him .
My turn to squeeze him , wahahahahah !
Well , shall update again ? With pictures this time :D
PS: Cheer up ! :D

Happy Birthday Granny :D

2009-11-20T22:39:00.000-08:00

Me and Bi going out now .
My Granny's birthday and they're having chalet .
Probably gonna stayover ? At Changi .
Well , will be back with pictures ! Stay tune , loves !

Swimming Day :D

2009-11-18T09:48:00.000-08:00

Well , today morning Bi came Buddy's house .
Buddy cooked for us and i had his mom's cooking , curry ! :D
Its so delicious , miss my grandma's cooking D:
Think I'm gonna ring her up and ask her to cook curry uhhhs !
So random , i know .. Laughs !

Ring up Ah Cheng and told him we're going over to his Condo for a swim .
But every time we're so lucky to get in without having him
to come down and open the gate for us , lols .

After our swim , i went to the gents with Bi and Buddy -.-"
We had sauna together because the gents was empty :D
Aftermath i went back to the ladies and bath , changed .
We were all hungry , so decided to had mac .
Slacked and saw Shery and some peoplessss , you knowzzzz , kaoxsss !

Fred called and he came down to meet us .
Awhile later my brother called and he came down too .
so we slacked and went home around 1 plus ..
Thanks Fred for the cabby and Bi got a ride home .
Well , goodnight peeps ! Ciaos ! Pictures will be late ..

2009-11-16T22:59:00.000-08:00

Yesterday went over to Zirca .
Met up with Buddy at interchange .
Trained to Outram Park than to clerk quay .
We're flooded with people there & its bloody hot .
Carol Jie selling tickets , so have to run here and there .
Saw alot of familiar faces . Chai Chee Secondary School peeps .
Cherie , HongWei , Jiahui , Kok Rui , Kok Hao , Randy , Damien , Ariffin & etc .
Well , we cabbed back home aftermath .
Went to Bedok for the interview like finally ?
I've never make the effort to wake up for that thingy till today .
Well , back to Bi's place . Meeting my mum for lunch :D Ciaos , enjoy the pics .

The day to enjoy :D

2009-11-15T14:32:00.000-08:00

Meeting Carol , Melven & Bi later on .
We're going iluma to catch the movie 2012 .
After that going club , not sure if we're gonna hang out outside
or we're going in , still debating -.-" Go or not uhs .. hmms ..
Well , underage party is fun but i'm 18 already , grrs !

Baby , whenever we hang out together ,
i want others to see how sweet & loving are we .
I dont want you to feel demoralize please ..
If you do , me too .
Because girls out there may have the best figure .
Because girls out there may have the best looks .
Because girls out there may have the best brains .
But your girlfriend ? She have totally nothing compare
to them . She only hopes that she's the most special &
unique one in your heart who plays an important role in you .
She can share your happiness .
She can share your sadness .
She can share everything that you wanna share with her in life .
She hopes she can be the one who holds your hand and walk
through hardships with you in life .
So we cant compare ourselves with others because what we
have , they might not have it . We have only a life time to
be together , why dont we treasure what we have instead
of comparing ourselves with others , wasting time ?
You'll never know whats the best in you .
Because its for you to know and for me to find out .
You'll never know whats the best in you because
you will find someone you love , and she will feel the
best in you , which is me :D
So , we dont envy with what others have , we have to show
others what we have and the very best in us .
That is why god created us differently .
But there's one thing for sure ,
Liau Cai Shun is meant for me and
Clarissa Choo Shi Yun is meant for you :D
We both rely and needs one another , no others .
I love you <3

Happy Birthday to Fangqi & Happy anni Bi :D

2009-11-14T10:02:00.000-08:00

Lets sing a birthday song to Koh Fangqi :D
Happy birthday to you ,
Happy birthday to you ,
Happy birthday to Fangqi ,
Happy birthday to you :D
Its my dearest daughter's birthday .
She's very busy with her work & totally have
no time for this mummy of hers .
But , i'll make sure she make time for me :D
Girl , happy birthday and grown up le uh .
Dont get bullied okay ? Must learn to stand up
for yourself but mummy is still here for you kay <3

And secondly , my 4 years and 10 monthsary !
To my love ,
Thanks for being there whenever i needed you most .
Still having the urge to scold you for leaving me behind
and went with other girls . But i've forgiven you .
Hmms , actually when you asked my my POSB account number ,
i've suspect that you asked someone to borrow you money
and gave me a surprise today . Indeed , i was a clever girlfriend :)
Some of them actually rejected and i feel so heart pain
because this actually spoil your plans for me .
I'm sorry baby , you're the best gift i've ever had , remember ?
Here you're sleeping soundly in the room , give you a kiss
and hope that you'll get the sweetest dream tonight , love ya !

We went out and had Fish & Co for our celebration :D
Bi had his Seafood Splatter and i had my Fish & Chips :)
Some photos taken and some late photos too , enjoy !

2009-11-13T00:05:00.000-08:00

ALAN JUST CAME BACK FROM AUSTRALIA :D
I'm going to Bi's house now , byeeee !

Oh , and i spotted a lot of spammer at ppl's blog too ! Lol !
Now a days , people getting more dumb-er ?
Spam with your own name because your mum gave you a name ,
asshole :x I bet you're a pathetic kiddo with low morale and is
totally a retarded . Laughs , i find that i shouldnt get so fed-up
cause of you , because i must pity you that you're only a spammer .
Be the world best spammer maybe you could make it as a occupation ?
Well , jolly well fuk off if you cant make me on FIRE :D Poborsss .

Baby's Check-up

2009-11-12T05:56:00.000-08:00

Suppose to give Bi a surprise today .
He's going for National service check-up .
I told him i'm too tired to accompany him down .
So i pretend to be sleeping .
I was waiting for inter and guess what ,
he text me and told me he's in the MRT now -.-"
I was like , what the hell , die .
So no choice , i called him and told him i'm going with him .
End up , its not a surprise le .
Went over to Red hill and his friend's parent drive us over .
Waited for like an hour plus .
Had our lunch there , his friend's parent drive us to Vivo .
Me and Bi than took bus 10 from there .
Didnt sleep the whole day , so obviously i sleep throughout the
whole journey . Lols ! Reached interchange , i'm still sleepy .
And i started to feel damn uncomfortable .
Started crying -.-" Reached Bi's place , sleep till 8 .. lol !
Alright , we're going over Vincent's place now , ciaos !

Where's the love ?

2009-11-11T13:31:00.000-08:00

Nothing much to post , feeling rather down .. sigh . I want my life back .
I can finally vent my anger on some retards who came my blog
spamming some stuff that only retards .. are able to read .
Please skipped this if you're NOT THE ONE .

Eh , please don't act like you're Caishun .
People like you without a name and using people's name ,
is totally someone with a dumbo name & someone who has a birdbrained .
And doing something so underachieving -.-"
Come on , i don't think you even suit to use his name ,
but if you think that's the best you can do , aww you totally disappoint me :)
Let me teach you something more desirable than those witless ideas
you came up with your birdbrain , opps ;x
Maybe you can call me with a public phone ,
act like his friend and tell me straight to my ear ? Lol !
OR
Maybe you wanna show me your pretty face ,
meet me up and show me how you want me to fuck Indian guys ?
You can be a good lodestar for me :D

Hey bitch , i can smell a strong jealousy from you , laughs !
And please don't make me write your full name here .
If you wanna be famous , you can text me and i'll make you famous
for sure . I bet you have my number if you have not deleted it .
Don be a coward , dislike me at least respect my friends , dog !
I would dare to say , you and your dog friends are simply low-class .
Please do something more archiving because i wont degrade myself to someone like you .

Reply Taggs !
Amanda - Lol , stalker ! Omg , meet up after your exams yeah !
Crazywomen - Lol , since when siol -.-"
Baobao - Thanks mei , love .

2009-11-05T13:11:00.000-08:00

Here's some of my thoughts after reading someone's post .
Well , everything in the past was great to me .
No matter how i hate or love someone .
Its not something i wanna forget even if i could have the ability to .
Like you said , you're someone who love to reminisce ,
so if you were given a chance to amnesia , would you ?
There's something very major i need to explain .
I hate being the past me , the girl who cant be oneself .
Having to think of my 2 girlfriends before i act .
I must say , I'm always madness when I'm with them .
We can do all sorts of silly stuffs together .
But every step i take always leads to hurt either one of them .
So , the best is to leave . Agree ?
And most fuked up was , when i was about to do it , something stopped me .
It was their laughter that recalls in my mind , their pictures in my wallet &
the messages they sent me . I just cant bring myself to hate or leave them .
One good news was , i did it once .
I left & i hate them to the core . Nothing stopped me , nothing at all .
Whenever i heard of their names , i don't feel a single pain .
And i even support people who detest them .
And now i found out , its not them , its just HER .
The one who says she don't have a best girlfriend at all .
And i told her i would be the one .
The one who says she have to bear with others attitude .
And i believe whatever she says about others .
Till now , i still think that I'm stupid , foolish & dumb .
But thankfully everything is over between the both of us .
I still want to say a big thanks for all the things you've done before .
Even we're strangers or enemy now , i still cant denied you're once
a girl whom i rely on so much , who once i loved so much . Thanks .

But at the same time , i just felt that i let someone down .
She's someone who always cheers me up .
In fact , we have lots and lots of arguments and disagreements .
But this always made us closer .
I'll never forget how she shouted at her mum because of me .
I'll never forget how she fought with her father because of me .
I'll never forget how she stand up for me .
I'll never forget the bread she made for me .
I'll never forget how she made up stories when i'm drunk .
I'll never forget how she cheers me up .
I'll never forget how we sing together .
I'll never forget and i'll never want to forget .
Let me tell you why , this is what you call a friend .
朋友一生一起走
那些日子不再有
一句话一辈子
一生情一杯酒
朋友不曾孤单过
一声朋友你会懂
还有伤还有痛
还要走还有我
The most brainless thing I've done was , to leave you & betray you .

2009-11-05T12:39:00.000-08:00

At an upcoming family event,
you should spend less time with the new relatives
and more time with the old relatives.
You'll find great value in relationships like these,
if only because you can appreciate your roots right now.
Enjoy the instant understanding and unconditional love
that comes from someone who has known you all your life.
It's something you should savor together.

Today morning i went over to Bi's place .
Sleep all the way till the afternoon while Bi played Red cliff .
He can really multi tasks , played Red Cliff & Dota at the same time .
Woke up , my turn to play Red Cliff , hehe !
His mummy bought dinner for us , we ate and went to Buddy's place.
We were laughing madly thanks to Buddy's Secondary school photos !
People really change as we grow older . My god , unbelievable !

Just finish helping buddy to pack his room .
Well , there's so much difference please !
The room is neater , cleaner & of course much more space .
We regretted for not taking a photo before & after .
You'll be shocked to see the difference ! Lols !
Now buddy is sleeping soundly , laughs !
Going Bi's place tomorrow :D Goodnight peeps !

Reply Taggs .
Carolyn - Ahjie , i miss you too ! Meet up soon :D
Serene - Haha , you want it ? I do it for you and your boyfie :D
Crazywomen - You miss me mehs ? Lol , everytime call you never pick up .
Bi - Bi i know you love me , dont have to tag me , i shy leis ! :P

You're my everything .

2009-11-01T13:40:00.000-08:00

Stayed over at Bi's place last night .
We had an early night . Both of us were really tired .
Bi argued with he mummy , he's feeling down .
I dont wanna make him worry for me .
But i still cried , because i find that i'm like so troublesome .
Sorry Bi , i will try to not let you worry okay ?
Its really heart breaking to see you sad .
Remember , you're not alone .
I did a video specially for you , hope you''ll like it .

Well , today we stayed at Bi's house for the whole day .
Woke up and watched TV together .
We prepared our own breakfast together :D
And we clean up the place together , like husband and wife uh .
We went to return Shery her books and return library books too .
After that went to Tampines One , take a look at laptops .
We settled down at East Link and had our dinner .
Aftermath went over to Buddy's place .
Met Damien for awhile , lepak & chit chat .
Bi left with Damien & I went back with Buddy .
Tomorrow we're going for the job interview together .
Damien , Me , Bi & Buddy . Alright , Gonna sleep now , goodnight !

Anw , WSY .
Stop being surprise that i would visit the library !
And dont laugh at me for borrowing the 3 little pigs .
Thanks for entertaining me when i said i borrowed the 3 little pigs ~
Oh , and i mistaken the author as you , thats why i borrowed the books .
Thansk for the story telling , and i know you miss the laughters ! Lol !
Alright , you can do it . You can cope between work and studies .
You have my support , this unknown can lend you a listening ear :D

Reply taggs !
Lihong - Alright , probably tomorrow :D
Clarissa - Hello , cutie pie !
Crazywomen - No la , busy uh , sorry .
Amanda - Hello , oh ! You actually visited my blogg :D

We love one another !

2009-10-31T03:56:00.000-07:00

Came over to Bi's place in the morning .
When i open the door , Bi's sleeping on the sofa -.-"
I bet he's waiting for me so he went to sleep on the sofa .
He looked so tired when i kissed him , laughs .
So , both of us went to sleep .
When i woke up , Bi bought breakfast for us already .
My favourite , "kuay chap" :)
So , while watching the TV we had our breakfast together .

After that i went back to sleep & Bi played his Red Cliff :D
He did not have much time to play . Because when i come his
house , i'll play . When he go Buddy's place , buddy will play .
So , now since i'm already a better level , so shall let him play :D
Alright , i'm not sure if i'll be able to stay at Bi's place .

Reply Taggs.
Lihong - Touching right ? Me myself also wanna cry when i read it . Okay , shall text you .
Bi - The stars from the sky ? Sure ? I want it :D Lols !

Thats the L.O.V.E

2009-10-30T13:24:00.000-07:00

Yes , we suppose to go for an interview today .
But the Boss told us that we have to photocopy 2 sides of our Identity Card .
So , we'll be passing it to him on Monday which is the next working day .
Went to Pasir Ris , suppose to meet up with Amanda .
But end up , she's not coming down due to some reasons .
This made my Buddy pulled a long face throughout the whole day .
I asked Bi try to make him laugh and cheer him up .
Guess what he did ? *MONKEY FACE!*
He's so cute please , but he's so biased , he'd never show it to me !
But this made Buddy smile for a few seconds -.-"
Now i know how difficult it is to make someone smile/laugh .
And only 2 person can cheer me up with their actions .
One is Bi and another one is Shery . They never fail to cheer me up :D

Bi , i really envy that you've such a heart warming family .
They're so good to you , you must learn to cherish okay ?
I know how they felt , they're simply worried about you .
Just one word from you , saying that you don't feel like studying
anymore , they allowed . Can you see how much they understand you ?
Like my parents ? One , living with a beast . Another one living with a pig .
No matter how much you hate your sister , you cant change the fact that
she's your real blood sister . Laughs , indeed she's a backstabber :x
But , this is something you cant compare . My brother is a sweet little boy .
Whoever dares to shout at him , touch him or hurt him , I'm gonna fcking
fck the person upside down . Regardless who that person is .

Elliott Choo , my dear brother . You should know i love you .
Since you were a little baby , I've always take good care of you .
But , the sad thing is , you can never feel the love from a happy family .
After you were born , when you were 1 years old , they divorced .
And you've been like a "Soccer Ball" .
Firstly , to grandparents place , than to aunt rose's place than
back to father's place . That time , i'm still young , i cant do
anything to stop them . But if only i could have the ability to
support you , i'll never let them do that . I swear .
Still remember everytime we argue and start shouting at one another ,
I'm always the victory . Because probably you're still young ?
Now , getting older and older , " got wings , can fly already ?" Lols !
Worse is , everyday when you call me asking me m i going home ,
i always felt like crying . You know i miss you .
Brother : Jie , you coming back or not ?
Me: No , why ?
Brother : I'm very bored at home , i wanna go find you .
Me: Dont want la , so late already , go sleep la .
Brother : I dont want , i wanna go find you , very bored la .
Me: *Angry* Ask you go sleep already , so late le , dont come out la , bye !
Brother : Okay lo , bye .
After hanging up , i've always having the urge to cry .
I miss you , i really hope i can stay with you for the rest of my life .
Take care of you without our parents . Bro , wait for me .
Remember we use to sing this song ?
"If you get there before i do , dont give up on me .
But i'm not gonna let you down , darling wait and see .
I'll be loving you , love me "
This is the first song you've ever sang to me , and i'll always remember .
When i got the ability to support you , you'll stay with me , okay ?
Elliott Choo , remember Clarissa Choo will always be there for you :D

Baby , try typing this on your message , and you'll find out what it is :D
PS:2229,04160466620568309680367084307378063*06905433 !

Slacked.slacked.slacked.

2009-10-29T11:39:00.000-07:00

Today suppose to meet Bi in the morning .
But due to the addiction of playing Red Cliff , woke up late .
And when i woke up , Bi's sleeping right beside me :}
So i guess , baby went to collect the lappy from kelvin himself .
But , when i asked , he said he didnt . And i believed .
So i asked him to text Kelvin and tell him we'll collect from him
after he ends he school . But Bi rejected D:
So i went out to the living room . And i saw a lappy lying
on the sofa . Stupid Bi , went to collect from him already .
But , he's so considerate uh , he rather collect himself than
asking me , this lazy girlfriend of his to accompany him , laughs .

Went down for dinner while Joel went over his aunty house for dinner .
Me and Baby than lepak for awhile than went to Buddy's house .
Currently blogging at Buddy's place .
Had our supper , instant noodle while Buddy had his mum's cooking .
Tomorrow we're going down for the interview .
A job with high pay :D 55 dollars 8 hours for Monday to Sat .
Sunday , twelve dollars per hour , which is 92 dollars per day .
And its up to us if we wanna work on sat & sun .
So we intended to open a Chalet , before buddy's enlistment .
Maybe a long one ? One week perhaps ? Lols .
Alright , i'm gonna sleep now .
Both my Baby and Buddy sleeping soundly already .
Bye peeps :D

Reply Taggs .
Cazarine - You better make time for me uh , love .
Geyun - Thanks ! :D

PS : Its the climb , but the view is great ..

The.love.that.grew.stronger.

2009-10-28T15:27:00.000-07:00

You love being an individual , almost as much as you love for other people to notice.
So when it's time to shop, you don't typically head for the mall
or anywhere else that everyone else goes.
You want unique, unusual, one-of-a-kind objects ,
whether you're going to wear them, display them, or give them away.
So when that friend you'd asked to go shopping raises an eyebrow when you mention where you're off to, don't be put off. Just be sure you drive. They'll love it once you're there.

Yesterday went to 85 market , meet up with Vincent & Amanda .
Chatting away , without realising the timing , gosh !
End up , we have to take a cab home .
So baby & i went over Vincent's place to stay .
And we can save up another cab fare to two places .

Today afternoon went back Baby's place .
Had KFC for dinner than meet up with Joel .
Before meeting Joel , we were having heart to heart talks .
Aftermath , my brother meet up with us and lepak for awhile .
Than Baby went home , my brother & i went Joel's place .

I'm going Clementi later .
Meeting Baby's friend , Kelvin , for his laptop later in the morning .
Alright , gotta catch some sleep now , its 6.35am .
Damn it , i've dark circles ! I need more sleep D:

Reply Taggs .
Serene - Yo , long time no see uh ! How's life ? :D
Huiyu - Okay :)
Geyun - I dont think so .
Cazarine - Yes , i'm so sad you're fully booked on your birthday . Busy girl .
Shery - You're welcome , you're finally 18 ;)

PS : I'll never leave you for whatever reasons ever again , i promise .

Getting cogitation because of you ..

2009-10-26T12:07:00.000-07:00

We seriously need to hang out someday .
Have been sitting at Vin's house for consecutive 2 days ?
Took turn to play Red Cliff , we're all crazy over this game .
We're lack of what's happening to the outside world , lols !
So happening that the 3 of us actually crazy over such games .
Specially me , I DON'T LIKE STORYLINE GAMES .
But , i don't know why I'm so addicted to this game , laughs !
So , I'm gonna stop stop stop for a few days ? Or maybe not :x

The only hangout place i went today was Foodcourt .
Saw some people who i dont wish to see , birdie face !
Come' on la , what century already , still gossiping ?
OR maybe you're just jealous i've got such a cute boyfie ?:x
Fuk it , you have yours and i have mine , clear line between us !:)

Esther came over Vincent's place .
Supposedly we're going over Wanli's place for Mahjong session .
But end up it was canceled , due to whatever reasons .
So she went over to meet Fred for steamboat , enjoying life uh .
Baby went home too , sigh . I miss you Honey !

Honey , there's thousands of you in my mind right now .
That is why I'm still blogging here at this timing , 3.21 am .
I just couldn't stop thinking of you , missing you .
We had a small tiff today & you apologize to me again & again .
I felt so bad because you deserve someone better .
Someone who knows how to cherish such a good boyfriend .
Those people who actually condemns that you're a bad boyfie ,
they're actually the one who took you for granted , I'm serious .
I know that you care , yet i was still throwing my ill temper on you .
Thinking about it , make me feel like I've convicted a crime , like a criminal .
Sigh , Baby I'm sorry for kicking a big fuss over it & being so unreasonable .
You should know i love you no matter what , you can feel it right ?
I keep saying that i would change for you , but I'm still the same .
My bad , my fault , i should not defend myself for my wrong doings ,
i should just fuk it and explained everything clearly . I'm sorry .
No matter how many times we argued , you're always the one
saying "sorry" . We should learn how to give & take .
So baby , dont make me a bad girfriend by pushing all the
blames to yourself when i'm in the wrong kay ! Lols , iloveyou !
You did wrong & i did wrong too , we deserve the same treatment
from one another . Baby , you're mine now & forever :)
Sluts , dont get jealous when you cant make him stay , lols !

Anw , HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY , SHERY WONG SHI YI :D
*Hope that you'll find someone who treasures you!*
Take good care of yourself and your family , loves .
Best regards , Clarissa .

Reply taggs !
Huiyu - Lol , your blog cant be seen , no post ?
Crazywomen - Leelian ? Oh . See when you wanna meet uh :D

PS : I'll be there for you .

Wangfu :D

2009-10-25T05:39:00.001-07:00

Yesterday went over to Baby's Grandma place .
Help out with painting the walls .
Took some photos with Wangfu :)
Enjoy !

Its all about you .

2009-10-22T13:41:00.000-07:00

Haha , i succeeded in surprising my boyfriend this morning !
I took a short nap after blogging .
And woke up at 7am , bathed and rushed over with breakfast .
When i was in the bus , he called me .
I didnt dare to pick up because i'm afraid he'll hear the bell .
But i picked up and ask him to hold on and i put on mute , laughs !
I know i was rather dumb , i told him i'm in the toilet
when it was silent when i put on mute . Lol !
But , this cute Boyfriend of mine , believed me !
When i reached , i called him .
He is in the toilet , making big business -.-"
So i waited , and he suspect that i went out .
So he look out and saw me while we're talking on the phone .
And yes , after he open the door and locks the door , i hugged him!
Oh my , i miss him like hella lots please ! *KISS*

Went out to meet Vincent in the afternoon at Tampines One .
Went down to Goldhill Plaza with Baby & Vincent .
Fill in application form etc .
The 3 of us is gonna start work soon .
Gonna enjoy when our first salary comes !
So far , our planning was shopping , Kbox @ ilima & steamboat !
Baby wanna share and buy me a lappy ! I'm awaiting :P
Thanks baby , i know you dotes me most .
Lets exchange okay ? I buy us a Couple phone again k :D
Alright , its 5 am again ! Just done with Vincent's Blog . Goodnight !

Oh , i'll be back with pictures because we're going to KTV later :)
Stay tune ! :D

RED CLIFF :D

2009-10-21T14:05:00.000-07:00

I'm addicted to this game , Red Cliff .
Its the best game i've ever played .
Rather confusing but interesting !
Me , Bi & Vincent is so addicted please .
My Character : SHIYUN
BI: ZHAOYUN
VINCENT:GUANYU
Try downloading it and you'll never regret playing it :)
Here are some of the screen shots :D Enjoy !

Me & Bi :)

One of my Newbie Pack Clothing :)

The other Newbie Pack Clothing :)

PS: Its a love story , baby just say yes .

Dear , imy!

2009-10-21T11:59:00.000-07:00

Guess what time is it now ?5am .
And , i miss my baby! I want to see him , now .
I'm sorry for showing you my attitude .
But , you attitude first uh , so fair fair uh !
You should know you're chicken feet to me .
Still wanna attitude me , never die before ?!
But i still love you to bits :)
I'm going over his house later to surprise him early in the morning .
I'm not gonna sleep till7 . Than instantaneously hurried to his house with breakfast :)
Give him a superb big hug and a morning kiss when he opens the door !
Bi , you deserve a good surprise from your sweetheart :)
I dont know if i should standby a camera and take a picture
of a dopey face early in the morning . *Planning*
* Bi , you better dont scold me for not sleeping uh . or not i ATTITUDE YOU uh !
(Scare right ? I'm a GANGSTER GIRLFRIEND uh :P)

Still reminisce about the past , the ups & down we've
gone through together makes me miss you even more .
The ring you bought for us after 2 years .
The Big Teddy Bear you first present me & etc .
Till now , we've broke up & patch up umpteen times , i still love you.

Today Vincent receives his National Service letter .
Enlisted on the next year January 2010 .
I've this bad feeling I'll go crazy if Bi receive his .
I keep telling myself , its just National Service , not Oversea Service .
Meaning he's still in Singapore , just not being able to see him for weeks .
But i cant help it , thinking about it makes me wanna cry .
Bi , i think i've fallen deep for you this time round . Love you !

You'll never be captivate.

2009-10-20T17:31:00.000-07:00

Whatever i do , you'll never be satisfy.
Wherever i go , you'll never give me the trust.
Whoever i hang out with , you'll never reassurance.
Tell me , because i've started to feel lost & hassle.

I just want you to know .
No matter what happens , i'm still here .
No matter who you've become to , i'll still love you .
I promise to stay with you , i will .
I promise i'll never leave you , i wont .
I promise i'll listen to you , i will .
I'm not as playful as you think , i'm enjoying life .
If you dont like it , i can change just for you .
I just dont wanna see you being flooded by troubles .
I wanna be the one being able to endure every hardships with you .
I dont wanna see you suffer alone , i'm suffering too .
Please , dont make me worry .
Dont make me regret making the decision of being with you .
I wanna see your old-self .
The one who smile wherever he goes .
The one who love me the most .
Baby , i know you're the one .

Even words can't say.

2009-10-20T01:15:00.001-07:00

Baby , this is for you :)
Some of us think holding on makes us strong; But sometimes it is letting go .
I have painted a million of kisses for you.
I have filled an ocean of tears for you.
I have walked a thousand miles for you.
I have counted the stars for you.
I did that, all because I love you.
If you're asking if I need you, the answer is forever.
If you're asking if I will leave you, the answer is never.
If you're asking what I value, the answer is you.
If you asking if I love you, the answer is I DO.
I love you for you, but mostly I love you for what I am when I'm with you
I love you unconditionally, with everything I am,
and more than anyone ever thought possible.
If I had to choose between breathing and loving you,
I would use my last breath to say, 'I love you.'
It takes three seconds to say I love you.
Three hours to explain it and a lifetime to prove it.
The shortest word in the world is 'I,'
the sweetest word in the world is 'love'
and the only one for me is 'you.'

Admirable cinematize :)

2009-10-19T01:03:00.000-07:00

These are some of the pictures taken
at the interchange few days back .
While waiting for Ah Vin's friends to reach ,
we took photos & I came up with a story :D
Look at the pictures and you will know why .
While uploading , somehow i find that the pictures
can tell a story ? Enjoy :D
Note: we did not intentionally made up this story before we take .
Here the story goes :

While taking the pictures of
a sweet little couple ..

This Ah Vin also want to take -.-"

Being force to take with him .
Yet he still not happy , wanna fight uh ?!

"Eh , wanna bully my girlfriend uh ?!"

My Hero ! ~

"Say sorry uh !"

Cool down ..

Aiya , squat down la . Legs tired lehs !

We're still friends after all :)

PS: WO MEN SHI PENG YOU :D

Be happy :)

2009-10-18T02:29:00.000-07:00

Today, do whatever makes you feel most comfortable. If you want to isolate, go ahead and do it; if you want to be the center of attention, put on your boa and some glitter and go for it! After all, little, if any, pressure is on you to conform right now, so if you feel like breaking away and doing your own thing, that shouldn't be a problem -- everyone just wants you to be happy.

Well said , i'm doing whatever its gonna make me

feel comfortable which is simply staying at home .

Not my home , my boyfriend's home :)

Everyone wants me to be happy ? Bullshit !

I just argue with my Dad today .

He asked why now a days i never go home ?

What the hell , he should ask himself why !

For heaven sake , thanks to the stupid wife .

What an ass hole , keep giving faces .

What's more , always finding fault with my Dad .

She dont have every right to do whatever she wants .

Pardon me , she's a MALAYSIAN afterall ! Fuk !

This only applies to her , dont take it to heart peeps .

Alright , i'm going Vincent's house today .

Damn shag already lahs . He's gonna face the Computer

for donno how many hours before he will allow me to use it .

Haha , fake fake ! Byeee ! Oh , still have few more pictures to upload .

Airbrushing

2009-10-17T06:06:00.000-07:00

Bused over to Boyfriend's Grandma place at 2 .

They've started painting when we reached .

Dear started to help out while i'm doing nothing .

I'm so bored and feel like sleeping , laughs !

Played with Wang Fu and took some pictures of him .

For your info , he is still as playful as he used to be :)

But , he learnt something new !

He learnt how to shake hand ! Aint he adorable ?!

It is such a waste i didnt took a photo , sigh .

Shall do it the next time .

Posting some of the pictures we took yesterday .

Had so much fun yesterday at the Airport .

Kept laughing , Baby's & Vincent's fault .

Whenever i wanna take a photo , they will look around .

Making sure that no one passby & look at them .

Wanna take photos yet they're so shy to take in front of strangers .

And i'll be uploading some pictures of Wangfu , which i took today :)

But everything will be done tomorrow , stay tune !

There's so many photos still yet to be uploaded .

Vincent , send me the photos soon uh !

Reply Taggs .

Samantha- Thanks ! Lol , really ? Meaning you got a boyfriend already huh !

Esther - Of course , you should know i miss you uh !

Baobao - Thanks sweetie , miss ya too !

Airbrushing

2009-10-17T05:22:00.000-07:00

Camwhore :)

2009-10-16T02:41:00.000-07:00

We're going out now .

Together with Vincent .

To Changi Airport , to camwhore !

Update tomorrow or tonight bahs , bye !

Friends :)

2009-10-14T23:24:00.001-07:00

You're mainlining valuable positive energy from other people right now -- no wonder your social life is on fire. This is a great day to surround yourself with tons of fun people, friends or strangers, it doesn't matter. Use this opportunity as a much-needed break from your staid routine. It will open you up to new relationships or different possibilities for existing connections. By the end of the day, you'll consider even those strangers good friends.

Unashamed & unprincipled

2009-10-14T02:00:00.000-07:00

Today I've learnt this 2 words .

Unashamed & Unprincipled .

Feeling no shame; impervious to disgrace.

A guy with no balls -.-"

If you cant be a man , be a women !

You should know who you are .

Someone who has a characteristic of befitting a girl , HAHA !

Sigh . You can view their blog .

Out of curiosity , you can while i can't .

Think about it , is this fair ?

Totally no contact the other side of world .

But yet you're doing it , think about how i feel .

You always ask me to stand in your shoes and think .

Did you ? I guess not , you wanna hide it from me .

I don't wanna blame you & I'm not blaming you .

I'm just ... disappointed . I love you & I'm sorry .

HAPPY 4 YEARS 9 MONTHS !

PS: Be a women if you cant be a man ! Joke of the day :)

2009-10-12T04:58:00.000-07:00

A certain someone you spend an awful lot of time with is about to let you know that every minute you've invested has and will be well spent. You're set up to learn the depth and breadth of a loved one's feelings, and even if you're single, there's no way you'll miss the enormity of those same emotions coming to you via the casual utterances and behavior of someone you had no idea was as fond of you as they really are.

That someone is obviously my BOYFRIEND :D

A Birthday Celebration Day :)

2009-10-12T02:55:00.000-07:00

2009-10-12T01:07:00.000-07:00

Went to Dian Xiao Er in the afternoon .

The food there was delicious ! Lol !

Baby and i was late , lol !

Took some photos .

One is the cousin shot , without Mavin;Jian .

The three little cuties , me , my brother and Alan :)

Another shot is with my Baby Boyfriend .

After that went to IKEA .

Grandma's treat .

The Cheese Cake was delicious as well as the Wings .

Because of the Cheese Cake , i argue with Baby .

Because i wanted to keep for later , and baby want me to eat it now .

End up , my brother share it with me and finish the whole thing -.-"

I swear i will go there just for the Cheese Cake !

Play around with the furniture and took a cute little photo

of my brother & Baby riding on a wooden seesaw -.-"

Uncle Andy came to fetch us :)

And drive us to Liying's BBQ , thanks thanks !

A few familiar faces , had fun chatting with them .

Even though there wasn't any activities going on ,

it was still enjoyable , so dont worry Bf Baby .

You did a great job in organising the BBQ :)

But kinda touching when the clock stikes 12 .

Liying's Bf says that he have to go home early .

And off he go with his friends .

End up , they all came back with a Birthday Cake :)

Liying burst into tears , guess it was touching uh !

She was complaining that her bf was in the wrong to

shout at his parents . But end up it all became a show .

Laughs , good actor uh ! Lol !

Anw , Bf Baby , Happy Birthday ! :)

Took cabby to Tampines and meet up with Leelian & Joel .

Storytelling ..

Main character , Esther , Leelian & Vincent .

Very confusing story -.-" But , i'm not really keen to know

what exactly happen because i cant do anything to help , sigh .

*Useless*

Went Baby's house and stay again , lols .

Should be going back home uh ..

Baby cried when talking to his mum .

He felt that he let his mum down .

Sigh , baby dont cry okay :)

You're a sensible son and a good boyfriend .

See , all your fault , make me cry when you cry .

Baby , iloveyou ! Dont cry k , heartpain uh !

Reply taggs .

Natasha - No , i didnt .

Jiahui - Alright baby ! Relinked .

Jason - Oh , working right now . HAHA !

Esther - Yes baby , i miss you too ! Meet me soon !

Crazywomen - You left out the 1610 -.-" how to relink ! Lol ! Love you !

PS : If you're sad , think of me and smile :)

Celebration :)

2009-10-10T22:47:00.000-07:00

Went to Weide's Party yesterday .
Uncle drive us back to Baby's house .
Felt so weak when i reach baby's place .
Having Bad Flu & Sore throat :(

Going " Dian Xiao Er " to celebrate my Grandma's
belated Birthday . At Tampines One .
Will update pictures if possible :)
Going Bf Baby's BBQ too .
Alright , bye peeps !

Reply to Sandy .
Alright , i'll go find out which school's better alright !

Its all about US :)

2009-10-10T00:34:00.000-07:00

Cogitation

2009-10-09T23:52:00.000-07:00

Lately , my mind has been running wild .
Whenever I've got nothing to do , I'll start ruminating .
Luckily I've my Boyfriend , being there for me .
An understanding and a caring Boyfriend .
I hope Mummy and I get to stay together again .
Even though she nags a lot , i miss her nagging ! Lol !
I hope Grandma will live happily forever .
Even though i did not get to celebrate her birthday
on her actual day with her , i still remember :)
I hope Baby can go in army and not having to worry
about me because I'm gonna wait for you Baby .

There's so many wish yet not fulfilled .
I believe dreams do come true , but not
as perfect as it seems in our dreams .
Dream and be a Fantastical Dreamer !

Today we're attending my cousin's Birthday Party .
Jeffrey Choo Wei De :D Happy Birthday !
Last long with your girlfriend uh !
Dont break her heart alright ! :)

Nothing much to post .
Met up with Vincent these two days .
Having to know that some people have changed .
If you guys think that what you've done is
right , i've got nothing to say or comment .
Saw Huiyu the other day at Inter with her boyfriend .
While i'm with Baby and Vincent .
I think i'm sick , sigh , never slept well last night .

Alright , gonna bath now .
Bye peeps . Some pictures to post later .

Reply Taggs .
Liying - See you tomorrow baby , i've recieved your sms :D
Jiahui - Alright , i've went to take a look already , not bad .
Jason - Haha , alright , linked already ! How are you ?
Sandy - Never forget uh . Tuesday i'm going school :)
Huiyu - Haha , i saw you too !

PS : Pertaining to thought .

"Perfect"

2009-10-07T22:01:00.000-07:00

Are you postponing taking that next big love step

because you're afraid?

And are you afraid because everything's not 'perfect'?

The stars tell you to snap out of it and stop asking yourself,

'What if?' or you could talk yourself out of a situation

that may not be 'perfect,' but is actually perfect for you.

You were born to love deeply,

so embrace an adventure that has the potential

to change your life for the better.

Having so much to do .

Getting bored in posting blog .

Maybe i need a break .

I think i should .

Baby , thanks for taking good care of me .

Since i've started working , you've never slept early .

Its all my fault , my bad .

But , you were the one who made me miss you so much .

So , its your fault too ! Lol ! Fake fake :X

Marina Barrage !

2009-10-03T23:18:00.000-07:00

Revealed through a trial

2009-10-03T20:11:00.000-07:00

Things that are way beyond your control
might be bumming you out especially hard,
but try not to get discouraged .
There is always hope.
Take a brighter, more peaceful approach
and talk things out with the people around you who feel the same.
Together, you can all get on a happier topic and
turn even the sourest lemons into delicious, sunshiny lemonade.
There's an inspiring force deep inside of you,

and it can only be revealed through a trial.

Talking about my work makes my life even more bromidic .
So i shall stop citing over working stuff .
Went Marina Barrage yesterday with Boyfie and family .
Had so much fun and took so tons of photos .
Shall upload it later .

Currently at baby's place .
He went down to packet food while I'm here blogging .
I'm so fortunate & blessed to have such a wonderful & amazing boyfriend :)
So , i should hold on to him tight before anyone get fingers on him again .
But like i said , if someone is capable of taking him away from me .
It simply shows that my love for him is not strong at all .
I cant blame anyone but myself . But this is promise to hold him tight .
I don't wanna cry over spilled milk or have any regrets in my life .

It will be a busy weekend the next week .
Saturday suppose to go to Weide's birthday party .
Guess we're not going anymore , due to some personal reasons .
Sunday its Liying's BBQ , still deciding to go a not .
Sorry Bf Baby if I'm not attending .
I've got to work on Monday uh , sorry !
I'll try my best to attend alright ? :)

Alright , I'm gonna have my breakfast already .
Bye !

8 letters 3 words 1 meaning

2009-09-27T03:38:00.000-07:00

Some people say it to anyone .
Some people say it for fun .
Some people say it for the sake of saying .
Some people say it to people whom they really love .
I wonder how many times have i say these 3 words .
But when i say it , i mean it .
So baby , i wanna tell you , I LOVE YOU .
Maybe we shouldnt say it too many times because
one day we will lost its meaning . This is a magical word :)
Whenever i'm sad , it can make me smile .
Whenever i'm angry , it can cool me down .
So baby , you're only allowed to say i love you ,
no more sorry , okay ? Forbidden word , sorry .

I'm staying at baby's place every saturdays and sundays !
Which means i'm going back later .
Sigh , i'm gonna miss him .
Having dinner with him now at his house .
Gotta go , byeee :)

Reply Baby .
Baby - Baby , you're my everything . I will use the rest of my life to take care of you .

Seriously Working .

2009-09-25T22:01:00.000-07:00

Have been working for the past 3 days .

All i can say is a very friendly and good

environment to work with them :D

Me , Joel & Vincent is the youngest over there .

So more privileges was given to us .

1st day:

Sit there , doing nothing was rather tedious .

All we do was just reading all the way

till 6.30pm . And earning $60 per day .

Haha , so it seems like we're not doing

anything to earn that $60 dollars .

All we did was , chatting away , play PSP &

messaging with baby for a short while .

Baby was late that day .

He fetch me everyday from work .

Take MRT all the way from Tampines to Clementi .

Its a long journey , poor baby .

Suppose to meet my mummy .

But was somehow cancelled so we packet food

back to my father house . Baby accompanied me

till 12 plus than he headed home .

That's so sweet of him but I'm feel like i'm such a evil girlfriend .

I should ask him to go home and get some rest earlier than 12-.-"

2nd day :

Work was rather boring at first .

Things got better in the afternoon .

The bank came over to explained the credit cards

and line to us . So at least we're learning something

instead of sitting down there doing nothing .

That very day , baby was on time .

He came all the way to Clementi MRT station :)

Baggy was so heavy , so my poor baby have
to carry it for me . Went Tampines and had KFC for dinner :)

While Joel & Vincent went back home for dinner .

3rd day :

Last day of work for the week .

We still have not starting calling customers .

Because first thing is , we still have not

receive our leads to call . And second

thing is we're still not very clear with the product

we're selling and recommending to the customers .

So all we did was picking out the important points

together with all the agents and doing role play .

After work , meet up with baby at Cityhall .

Suppose to accompany him to Woodlands

to get some stuff , but he said he shall

postponed it and collect it some other day .

So the four of us went to Tampines 1 for our dinner .

Than lepak at Interchange .

Went over baby's house at stay over .

Guess we're not going anywhere today .

Stay at his house and rest .

Maybe meeting my brother and Crazywomen later .

Alright , shall stop here . Byes !

Reply to taggy .

Lihong - I'm working at Clementi , why miss me uh ? LOL !

Bi - I'm working very hard and same time missing you very much :)

Passerby - I just hope that everything will be fine , we use to be friends .

Crazywomen - The actress , getting worse la -.-" Tell you again , later text you .

Yujie - Nah its alright , dont ever let me found out who is the imposer Yujie .

Jieyun - Thanks meimei , thank care of youself :)

PS : The pot calling the kettle black . What a joke ?

Enjoying for the last day .

2009-09-21T23:18:00.000-07:00

Alright , suppose to be working today .
But , it was somehow delayed .
So i'll be working tomorrow .
Today i'm going out with baby .
But i guess , i dont have the mood now .
Someone lost all my clothings ! F !
Please use your brain la !
Whenever you call me , i pick up .
Told you another day i will go over and pick up .
Now ?! Told me , your renter or whoever shit
move it out . You are responsible for it okay !
Now all lost , you're gonna pay with every cent you
have ! I dont care you're asking your mum or who
to pay for you . You can say i'm heartless , i dont care !

Reply Taggs .
Cazarine - Baby , you too take care :)

Stop your doltish thinkings !

2009-09-21T00:37:00.000-07:00

Well said !
What a good liar & actress you are !
I've finally see your true colours !
Do you think by doing all these ,
you'll get what you want ? You dont
deserve good & true friends !
Think about it , maybe you're not
as clever as you think ! F!

Stayed over at baby's place last night , again .
Tomorrow is a working day for me .
Which sadly means that i'll get to see baby only
by this friday . Sigh ! Yesterday went to
eat than headed to TM for some Sushi .
Baby told me that he have a $20 voucher .
So we can buy food & drinks at 7 eleven , cold storage
or shop and save . We than decided to go to
the nearest 7 eleven and get all the stuffs .
Took some pictures of it . HAHA ! Shopping spree !

I left out the strawberry yoghurt :X

Reply Taggy .
Crazy Women - No la , you light up our day what , with that the rock's joke !

PS: They think they can seperate us ? Foolish thinkings !

I'm yours !

2009-09-20T02:18:00.000-07:00

Sometimes or should I say most of the times,

I don’t meant what I say.

It could be really frustrating that we can’t grasp hold

on what the we are thinking but at times it’s fun to study them.
Women are complex, perhaps the most in this world,

but they do not need to be a psychic to read what we are thinking.

Experience and a little bit of attentiveness in a relationship will do .

It will help them in exploring the truth communication between women ;)

No matter how hard men try to understand female brain works,

using all sorts of way , they just can’t seem to figure it out.

Relationships are rife with surprises and uncertainties

of both good and bad but sometime this female brain

is the adherent of your relationship prime evil .

So we females must be more understanding because

we female are the most fearful human beings besides their parents . Haha !

Here are some tips to the guys .

Example 1.

What She Says: I like you, but I don’t want to ruin our friendship.

What She Means: I have zero interest in dating you.

Example 2

What She Says: Do you think she’s pretty?

What She Means: Do you think she’s prettier than I am?

And even if you do, don’t you dare say yes.

The best way of all .

If you just can’t win them, silence maybe the best solution.

Yes ! I'm seeing baby in less than an hour's time .

He's coming back from his grandma's place now, NOW .

We're going out today , just the both of us :)

Going town i guess , maybe Suntec ? Singapore is boring .

Baby , lets go oversea together before you go army okay ?

Getting prepared to see Bi .

Bye peeps !

PS :

Are you serious in explaining ?

2009-09-19T15:27:00.000-07:00

Its so saddening that I'm not seeing baby tomorrow morning .

I'll be missing him hell lots , from the moment i left his house .

Its the second time when i turn around and walk away without him ,

i feel like crying . Tears rolled down when i was in the lift .

Its not as if I'm not seeing him forever .

Its just that I'll get to see him only in the afternoon .

Baby , I'm so understanding uh !

I understand you have to go to your grandma's place .

I also understand that you cant reject your mum .

I can also understand you need me to be understanding .

See , you're so fortunate to have such a understanding wifey :)

Oops , did i just praised myself ? Laughs !

But , Baby is forever worrying for me .

I think if one day *touch wood* he dies ,

when he's lying in the coffin , he'll still be worrying about me .

Baby , that's why i love you .

Words cant express my love for you .

Send you a flying kiss okay ! *Flying kiss*

Aw , so mushy uh ! Don't get jealous ! Lols :p

Joel & Vin came Baby's house to fetch me .

Met Fred first than Leelian baby cab down after her movie .

Not long , when we're leaving , Esther came .

Lepak for awhile , all went home .

Smsing with baby right now .

He wants me to think of where to go when we meet .

But Dear , I'm so sleeping now uh . Brain's not functioning well .

Haha ! But I'm forever the planner , I'm his lady boss :p

Vincent told me a lot of things .

If she's really serious in explaining everything ,

we wouldn't be in this state now , m i right ?

Vin , you see the main point and the importance of explaining ?

Is not that i did not give her a chance to explain .

But , everything is too late now .

Drawing a clear line between us is the best .

Reply Taggs .

Bee-Nah , i love you more lehs , dont argue with me uh ! *kisses*

Jieyun - Relinked already oh :) Loves meimei .

Mr.Liau's wifey .

2009-09-19T06:25:00.001-07:00

Sleeping at baby's house for half a day .

Watched DVD , ate breakfast & played games together .

Mr.Liau wake me up for dinner . Thanks baby !

Well taken care by baby these few days :)

I'm SO gonna miss him when i start working .

Left two more days to work , i bet i'll miss him

more than he miss me or maybe as much as him ? HAHA !

So baby , you'll be sneezing like hell , watch out :)

Joel , Fred & Leelian are such good friends .

They asked if my boyfie wanna join them next time

for drinking sessions and stuffs like that . They're so sweet right .

And Baby promise me , one day he will find time :)

Haha ! This is an evidence to prove that baby promised me .

Reply Taggys .

Baby - Bi , i will miss you too . Dont sigh baby , smile :)

Yu-Jie - Haha , you damn bad sia ! They're humans beings ehs .

Yu-Jie bf - Damn sarcastic ehs you . Laugh until stomach pain -.-"

PS: Dont be a dog , spam with your name -.-" Hamji , eat too much HAM uh !

Edited .

This spammer , i dont know how to say lehs .

Brainless or what . Same people sia -.-"

87.237.221.13

So lame ! Is that the best you can do ?

I think i can do better than you ! Laughs -.-"

A false statement ,

2009-09-18T15:07:00.000-07:00

Went to eat KFC with Mr.Liau .

Headed back Bedok Reservoir with Crazy women ,

my bother , bother's gf & Mr.Liau .

Had fun chatting . But some about "her" topic . F!

Going everywhere also got people ask me about her .

Specially Crazy women , i didnt know someone hate

her as much as i do , laughs ! Relax crazy women :)

The Joke of the day , story told by CW .

My brother had a fight with someone few days back .

A Primary Six boy kept looking at him .

My brother shouted at him .

" Eh , why you keep looking at me ?"

"You think you look like THE ROCK uh ?"-.-"

That highlighted word made me and Bi laugh our ass out !

Kept laughing and we gave my brother a name , STONE COLD -.-"

So obviously , STONE COLD won that match :)

Very lame , very lame , very lame .

Went to meet Fred , Leelian & Joel .

Despite having a boyfie , they're true friends that stay .

They never leave me out during their meetings & outings .

Thanks peeps ! Fred hiong his father car out .

Went OCH than to Airport & have breakfast .

Wonderful outing even though there's only four of us :)

Going baby's place later .

Gonna start work soon , will have lesser time for him .

Baby , i know you'll miss me right ?

But i'm missing you as much as you miss me .

If you give me one chance to tell you , how i want you badly .

I would sing to you & tell you , i wont leave without you baby .

If you give me one chance to tell you how much i love you .

I would hold your hand & look into your eyes quietly.

And thats when you know how much i love you baby .

Reply taggy ,

Baobao - Thanks meimei , i will make sure we last :)

Crazy Women - Sorry la , sorry to leave you alone .

Yu-jie - Yu jie , thanks babe . I dont wanna be like her , spreading stuffs .

Yu-jie's bf - I dont about her already , she's OUTTA my life man .

2009-09-18T01:24:00.000-07:00

Baby ,
I could honestly say you've been on my mind .
All the while that you've been gone .
I look at your photograph all the time .
These memories come back to life
I remember when we kissed , I still feel it on my lips .
I remember the simple things , I remember till I cry
But the one thing I wish I'd forget
The memory I wanna forget is those goodbyes .
Whenever i played our song & through my tears I sang along
I picked up the phone and then put it down
Cause I know I'm wasting my time & i don't mind .
You say that your biggest regret
The one thing you wish that i'll forget
Is you saying goodbye .

Baby , i'm sorry .

2009-09-17T19:42:00.000-07:00

Being famous ? Need supports ?

I dont need any of that .

LOSER !

I'm like a trouble maker for boyfie .

Yesterday went to Boyfe's Grandma place .

Had breakfast & dinner with them .

We had breakfast togather at Loyang Point .

As for lunch , i think all of us skipped our lunch .

I'm like so tired , so i slept . While boyfie & his

family members did some house chores .

Had dinner at home & it was delicious :)

Especially the soup ! I drank the whole big bowl of it :P

When i woke up for dinner , boyfie's mummy left .

So me & baby went back ourselves .

Another stayed over at baby's place .

Later meeting my crazy women ! Thanks for the Elmo !

I love you ! I've been wasting money at East Coast

trying to get that stupid reddy Elmo .

But luck was damn bad , thanks for giving me as a gift !

See you at 12.45 , St Hildas school gate :)

Reply Taggy .

Kerien - Haha , lame siol -.-" Chocolate lehs ! HAHA ! Love you ~

Esther - Alright , thanks baby ! Meet up with you soon okay ?

Getting closer .

2009-09-16T07:01:00.001-07:00

Guess what , i'm going Baby's grandma place
with him tomorrow , together with his mummy .
Haha , baby is sending me home now .
Gonna see him tomorrow :) Baby , iloveyou !

Update soon :)

You're not sorry & not forgiven !

2009-09-16T00:50:00.000-07:00

My horoscope says :

Seek the comfort of your home and family. They need your attention right now.

Every choice you've made in the past has helped create the wonderful person you are, so be proud of the lessons you've learned. Show that pride by sticking to your guns and living up to the reputation you've created. People always rely on you to do the right thing, and that's an incredibly valuable (and flattering) position to be in. Don't dilute your point of view to appease other, more powerful people. They'll respect you all the more for being true to yourself -- and that's the goal.

HAHA !

Every decision i've made in the past help to create a wonderful person

i am today . So , i wont live with regrets .

For every decisions i've made , i wont regret .

That includes for the people i'll never wanna forgive .

Jie , you'll never know how hurtful it was .

Maybe you can feel the pain i feel , maybe not .

But , thanks for being such an understanding sis .

I may regret someday , like how i did before .

But , that will never happen again .

Because , this time round , she treated everything like a game .

If she's serious in him , maybe i cant do anything .

Like his ex girlfriends , i'm still friends with them .

So i dont see a point why i cant forgive her .

Maybe this concerns her attitude , i cant bring myself

to forgive her . Or maybe , she dont even need me to forgive her ,

because as her character , she's someone who wont ask

for forgiveness . So , whats the point ? Everything is over .

We're meant not to mixed together :) We're both happy with

lifes without one another . Thats the best solution :)

So everyone , the topic between my boyfie & her is over .

I never wanna bring this up again .

If you're be a busybody , ask someone who knows about it then .

I had enough telling so many people , explaining it to them

again & again . Read my older post again & again , maybe you'll catch

some balls ? Laughs ! My baby says , maybe you'll catch fishballs , sotong balls -.-"

"............dots............................" Er , lame uh -.-"

Met my mummy for lunch today .

Had chicken rice .

After that went back baby house .

Like lovely little couples uh :)

*Awww , dont get jealous :)"

Reply Taggs .

Kerien - Haha , sweet la you ! Muacks !

Juemins - Thanks babe ! Its time to move on :)

Huiyu -Alright uh , five working days . $1200 . Life's good , you ?

PSB - No , its the same guy .

Simple yet contented :)

2009-09-15T00:38:00.000-07:00

Its a brand new start for baby & i .
Went TM , had LJS for lunch .
After that my mum came to look for us .
She send us over to look for Grandma :)
Glad that she's smiling , and happy with her life now .
A lot of my friends misses her .
Me & Baby decided to go E!hub to catch a movie .
But was kinda late , so we dropped the idea of watching a movie .
Went Burger King and had our dinner .
Slacked around and went back around 11 plus reaching 12 .
I cant go back home because I've got no keys and its kinda late .
So Baby suggested to go his house and stay over .
And I'm still here now :) 4.36pm .
His mummy is gonna packet food back for us , so sweet of her !
I'm not staying over tonight , i will be missing baby uh D:

I'll be working as a Fulfilment Officer in 22ND this month .

No time for baby , afraid I'll be neglecting him .

But baby , you know i still loves you .

Remember what i told you yesterday ?

"If you ask me my life is more important or you .

I'll tell you its my life . I know you'll get

disappointed . But you'll never know that ,

YOU WERE MY LIFE :) "

So , don't ever think that i don't love you okays :)

Baby , smile :)

Alright , gonna bath now . Baby wanna play Maple le .

A little secret for the girls :

Maple & Dota are boyfriend stealer , they're the real bitch & slut !

Baby , argee ? HAHA !

Reply Taggs .

Kerien - Haha , if he dont treat you nice , i'll whack him for you :P

Yizhen - Yes , you must believe that you'll find someone better :)

Lihong - Okay , thanks baby ! I will i will :)

Huiyu - Thanks ! You too :)

Leelian - Haha , okays ! Meet up soon ! Thanks Baby .

Happy Bithday Dad :)

2009-09-13T20:32:00.000-07:00

Happy 45 yrs old Birthday Dad !

You've been a loving , caring and a wonderful father .

Even my friends said that .

All these while , thanks for taking care of me .

I'm sorry for making you worried throughout the nights

that i did not come back home , i should be more sensible .

Sorry for making you stay up late just to wait for me when

you still have to wake up early in the morning for work .

Despite everything i've done , you still love me .

I love you too ! Kissssssssss :P

This photo was taken last year , during his birthday .

This was also taken last year .

My Horoscopes says :
This could be quite the romantic day for you. Oh, and then there's the fact that the heavens have arranged a full buffet of sweet, tender energies to assist you in creating not just perfect ambiance, but also the right words to express your emotions. So! Ready to let go and be totally emotional? Ready or not, here comes your chance.

Yesterday Baby & i went TM .
Saw Ling and her boyfriend .
Miss her so much sial ! *Hugs*
After TM , went back my father's place .
Went down to have dinner so as to celebrate for my dad .
Odered a number of dish , i'm so full after eating at TM , so i didnt
really eat alot . But Baby still ate rice , pigggggg !
Haha , went back my house after dinner , 10pm sharp baby left .

We talked on the phone till he reaches home .
We're like super glue -.-"
He stayed awake till midnight 12am ,
just to call me and ask me for patch , so sweet right !
When i was already in my lala land ,
i did not pick up but i saw his sms when i'm awake .
I'm touched , thanks baby ! Loveeeeeee youuuuuu ~

Of course its a romantic day for me :)
What's the date today ? 14th :)
These few days have been meeting my baby .
Early in morning , went his house .
I bought porridge to his house today , baby dont feel like eating .
So i didnt bought his share .
But so sweet of him , he feed me uh !
We're going out already , Bye peeps !

CRAZY WOMEN !

Thanks for your post :)

You & Jian also must last long long okays !

I love you Babe ! She's not worth my tears :)

Reply tags .
Yizhen - Babe , i'm sure you'll find someone who will treasure & cherish you .
Serene - Okay sweetie , i relinked already :) Love ya !
Kerien - Thanks CW , love you to the max !
Child - No , besides my ex boyfriends . The one she mention was another incident ?

*Dont get freaking jealous , because you're not fit to be jealous . Childish ?

Third Party :)

2009-09-12T19:58:00.000-07:00

Come on , look who's the bitch here .
Entertain your own life like how i did ?
Have a sense of originality , don't be a photocopy machine .
Be original ! Oh , please don't act like you know me .
1st : When you know i loved him so much .
* You bloody hell get involve with him .
2ND : Trying to destroy the trust he have for me .
* You told him i slept with other guys .
Good job , and that's what you deserve , ha ha !
I swear I'm gonna make the person pay .
And double the price . Disappointment ,
when i got to know its you . No longer important now .
He's not your cup of tea , than jolly well back off & fcuk off :)
I think the number of people who condemns about you ,
is increasing after this incident , I've spread this news for you babe .
Don't mention it , you don't have to , that was what i was suppose to do .
So as to repay the kindness and the good deeds you've done !
I've to be as cruel as you , i know i can do way better than you .
Oh , you've save up his effort anw :)
You're just saving some faces for yourself by mentioning the break up ,
just because you've sense some thing's wrong , ha ha !
Thanks for mentioning the break up uh !
I'm watching you & the same time laughing at you :D
Now i know why my cousin's gf hate you so much ! Lol !
Oh ya , a piece of advice from me , those people
who hate you and condemns about you , don't pull your friend along .
She's got nothing to do with it , everything is just you alone k !
Lastly , he got nothing to lose & I don't think you'll even bother to
take a look at my blog . Since its just a game , GAME'S OVER BITCH !

Whao ! After typing this out , i felt better .
Lihong baby , thanks for being there and brave up my courage .
Thanks for believing that i can do something she can too , also
i can be as cruel as her , more vicious than her , feel better now , thanks !
Cazarine baby finally text me , omg , i miss her so much !
We're gonna meet up for shopping soon okay ! With Yeolihong :)
Mr Liau , you'll never come last too baby :)
Game's over , don't have to entertain her anymore .
Now that you're mine , no more intruders k , love ya !

Reply Taggs .
Lihong - Baby , i love you uh !
Yizhen - Hey , dont get upset over this kinda guy , not worth k darling .

*I'm in love with you baby !

Baby , iloveyou .

2009-09-12T04:47:00.000-07:00

Hon , no matter what , i still loves you :)
Remember , when you turn back , I'll still be there .
I'm still the one who love you most .
Compared to other girls , i cant say I'm the best .
But , I've tried my very best to be your dream girl baby .
Even though you've lied to me umpteen times , I'll still forgives you .
As long as you come back to me , I'll do anything .
Baby , anything .

I'm happy today :)
Stop wild guessing people .
I met someone i missed dearly .
*I'll never forget the hugs & kisses !

*IS THAT THE BEST YOU CAN DO ?

AW , YOU TOTALLY DISAPPOINT ME !

Dedicated to Yeo Li Hong :)

2009-09-12T03:58:00.000-07:00

Dearest Yeo Lihong :)
Thanks for showering your care & concern .
I'm deeply appreciated .
We're gonna overcome everything together ok !
Thanks for being there for me , iloveyou !

Oh my goodness .

2009-09-11T22:44:00.000-07:00

One bad news broke out to me today .

It made me cry , badly .

My heart was broken into pieces .

You bitch ! You know what you did .

I dont wanna mention your name and

i dont wanna make things obvious !

Please dont treat me like a fool alright :)

I'm not a three year old kiddo .

Told you everything was meant for me to know .

Do you think you can hide across the mountain ,

or deeper than the sea , damn you .

Alright , cool down baby :)

I'm alright now , chill ~

I will be WATCHING YOU !

Reply Taggs .

Yizhen - Can you feel the pain i felt ? Sigh .

Lihong - I got something to tell you , you'll be shocked ! Bitchhhhh ~

Baobao - Thanks mei , love ya !

Kerien - Alright , thanks CM ! I love you , wont bomb you laaa :)

Its all about you .

2009-09-10T19:03:00.000-07:00

Caution : You might not want to read this post .
Description : A long wordy post about me and him .

We dated for 4 years on and off .

And I still have the ring , the presents from him & the pictures we took .

Things went sour during the last year of our secondary school life .
I loved him more than I have ever loved another human being .

There's once he broke up with me without notice or reason ,

and i found out that he had a new girlfriend 2 weeks later , no longer together now .

I am in so much pain and it’s been almost a year .

I don’t miss him anymore , but I miss the guy I fell in love with 4 years ago ,

not the one that he is now . He've changed , totally .

You taught me how to love,but not how to stop.
You were the one that could alway make me smile
You were the one that could always make me laugh
You were the one who could always tell when i was mad or sad
You were the one who always knew wat i was thinking

You were the one i always trusted
You were the one that told me u never wanted to lose me but
You were the one that let me down
You were the one that broke a big promise to me
You were the one i never thought would do that
You were the one who broke my heart

I have dated other people but nothing compares to the feelings I had for him .
Oftentimes we say goodbye to the person we love without wanting to ,
AND GUESS WHAT ? I JUST DID IT .
Though that doesn’t mean that I've stopped loving him
or I've stopped to care . Sometimes goodbye is a painful way to say I love you .
He told me , he's afraid of getting hurt again .
And i just did something dumb again .
I told him , i wont love him .
I'll find a boyfriend , and it will never be him .
I just promised i wont love him ever again .

Trying to forget someone you love is like
trying to remember someone you never knew.
Yes ! Its hard to let go , but do i have a choice ? No .

Relationships are like glass.
Sometimes it's better to leave them broken
than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.
I often hurt myself while putting it back together ,
since when i've learnt my lesson not to put it back ?

Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak .
Sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go.
Strong enough to let go . But what if i always give up for
a moment and regret after a short while ? M i still strong ?

Memories are the best souvenirs.
But everytime when i took out and take a look , i cried .
It breaks my heart even more .

Reply Taggs .
Lihong - I just promised him i wont love him .
Yizhen - You've given your best , dont worry alright ?
You cant do anything now since you've passed up your paper , right ? Chill ~

Right here waiting .

2009-09-08T16:07:00.000-07:00

Telling the truth isn't just second nature to you , it's really more like an innate reaction that doubles when official business is impending. So now, regardless of how anxiously you're awaiting some one's answer to a tender question, you won't be willing to tone it down or take it back, not even a touch -- not even if you know they'd prefer you hadn't started a major ball rolling with the powers that be. Oh, well. Respect is the glue that holds any relationship together.

Telling the truth ?
By telling the truth , i need him to believe in it too .
Or not , I'm just wasting my time explaining .
M i right ? If I'm wrong , prove me wrong then .

We were debating weather to go club or not .
But the tickets were so expensive , $23 -.-"
And i promised him i will never go clubbing .

So , we dropped the idea of going then .
Met up with Vincent and Leelian together with Joel .
Suppose to meet Fred , end up he's tired i guess .
So the four of us decided to go cycling .

So went cycling with Leelian baby , Vincent & Joel .
Ride to East Coast again . Laughs !
We were so unlucky today compared to the past few rides .
1st : Joel and Vincent fell down from their bicycles .
They had bruises on their legs , poor thing .
2nd : The bike me & Leelian is cycling , spoilt -.-"
Trouble Joshua to bring us tools to fix the god-damn-it bike .
Thanks Joshua for riding over :D
Leelian's friend came to fetch her home by bike .
While that asshole Vincent took cabby home .
So obviously , two "ah hai " riding bike back to tamp !
3rd : The god-damn-it bike was totally broke down at bedok .
Joel have to pull the bicycle all the way from bedok to tamp .
So obviously , its an unlucky ride today . Sucky .

Happy 18th birthday Lee Wei Min :)
Saw him at Inter today .
He told me his wishes was to see me quit smoking & drinking .
So cute right ? His wishes was wanting me to change .
When i thought that wishes are for you to fulfil something
for yourself yet he was like giving it to me .
I'll try fulfilling it :D Happy Birthday !

Both of us changed .
No longer like we use to .
We still text one another , but getting lesser .
We still joke around , but getting lesser .
We still tease ine another , but also getting lesser .
Our game's over , there's no way turning back .
你不太浪漫 , 我说很习惯 .
你的肩膀给我很多安全感 .
握紧你的手,用全力向天空尽情呐喊 .
我会很爱很爱你 , 一百个世纪 .
很爱很爱你,没人能代替 .
我的心永远不变,我会很爱你.
黑夜到黎明,很爱很爱你.
我最爱最爱的你!
No matter what , i'll still be waiting for you .
I'll make sure , when you turn back , i'll still be there .
When you're hurt , i'll be there to cure it .
When your heart is broken , i'll be there to fix it .
No matter what , i'll still be there :)

Reply taggy .
Passerby - I'm sure , because i still contacts him ? Nah , its him . Nobody new .
Jas - Haha , i dont know how to change uh . Lol ! Ps .
Serene - Dont work there uh , there sucks too . Laughs !
Yizhen - Omg , my dear . Sorce base question is the easiest to get marks .
just anyhow write something that is common sense , sure got marks :)

Ps :很爱很爱你,没人能代替 :)

Nothing goes right .

2009-09-06T23:28:00.000-07:00

If you just heard one sided story .
You rather listen and believe them ,
or you would give the victim a chance
to explain ? What do you think its fair ?

Since eveything is settled between us ,
I hope that things goes right for us now .
And the reason to start over new , its you .

Yesterday went to my grandparent's place
to do some prayer stuff .
Played black jack , win $15 :)
And guess what ?
I randomly feel like buying lottery ,
and it i strike two numbers on sun !
Thanks to Fred , Esther & Joel .
Fred's birthday month was : 1
Mine : 2 Joel's : 6 Esther's : 7
So i bought 1267 for sat & sun .
And won $ 13 :) Haha , so random right !

Currently i'm at Cyber Era .
Playing L4D :) Bye people :D

Reply Taggy .
Passerby - He dont have a girlfriend . I'm still waiting .
BAOBAO - Alright baobei :)
Yizhen - Best of luck my dear , dont get nervous ! Do your best okay !
Serene - Haha , alright sweetie ! Take good care too alright :D
Jas - Haha , what's the problem you're facing with my blog , maybe i can change ?

I'm no longer emo , because i've got you :)

Embrace myself

2009-09-03T13:28:00.000-07:00

I don't like being mean until it affects me .
I don't get into many fights , but when i do , they are serious .
I believe in standing up for myself and others .
I'm not a pushover , get it people :)

Emotions are very very much the core of my being now .
They flow in me , as i flow with them , thats sucky .
They can be hard to control sometimes ?
Imagine that i can even cry over a movie ,
and gets dissapointed easily when others
don't meet up with my expectations .
Nothing ever seems to go right for me
and i'm always being let down whether its
by boys or my girly friends , why ?
Whether it is to a friend or not , i shield myself .
I hide from people , especially myself .
I don't even know my true self . But i strongly believe
that if i let people find out the real me , i will soon be betrayed .
However , being under a silk screen , people can see what i'm truly hiding .
My friends will always be there to talk to ,
but i just need to work up the courage to tell them
what's on my mind . I know i shouldn't be scared of
what's coming up next in my life . I need to embrace my inner self , gosh !

I dont know why m i still thinking of him , still missing him .
He is a man who can make me laugh ,
someone who can break the ice , get the ball rolling .
A man with witt , intelligence and a sharp tongue .
He has to have a balance , not one to be a clown ALL the time ,
but humor was one of his biggest personality traits :)
Funny men are often over looked because people don't take them seriously ,
but they are people too , and capable of being very caring :)
He is not a professional kind of comic guy but
just a wise cracking smart guy that keeps people on their toes .
Thats the way he is and thats why i love him .
For who he is and not what he is .

Reply taggy .
Passerby - I just cant let him go , maybe i needed time .
Kerien - Haha , ya lah , wont BOOM liaos ! Lol ! Love you too :)
Serene - Laughs , no lahhh ~

A hair cut .

2009-09-03T10:33:00.000-07:00

Went City Plaza because Esther was craving for the food there .
Bused to bugis , paid her bills , extended her hair & i had a hair cut .
Was kinda late when we're done , so we bused back to tamp .
Had Mac for dinner & home sweet home .

Why dint you even bother to reply my messages ?
I was just asking as a friend , sending my regards .
If you're seriously gonna avoid me , i bet you know
what will happen . I don't wish to do things that it will
hurt anyone of us . I wasn't trying to help or being a
busybody . I was just merely asking how are you .
But still , i miss you .

Reply Taggy .
Serene - Haha , its my ex bf sweetie .
Kerien - Yeah , new line new contract .
Wanli - Haha , i know I'm EMO . Laughs !

PS : All i ever wanted was you coming back , the old you .

Another night cycling .

2009-09-02T18:05:00.000-07:00

Went cycling with Fred , Esther & Joel .
Supposedly Vincent is tagging along but because
we ended up meeting up late , so left him out .
Cycled all the way to Pasir Ris park , than went
to Mac for an early breakfast . As early as 6 plus .
Home sweet home at around 7 plus .
Now , I'm here blogging because i cant get into sleep .

I know that i might sound a bit emotional here ,

but i seriously need to rant it all out at once .

Keeping it in my heart , makes me feel uneasy .
Otherwise , the things that flash through my head is

driving me crazy . I couldn't stand it no more . I miss you .

Is it true that you'll never know what you have until you lose it,

and once you lose it, you can never get it back ?

But still I'm holding on to something that used to be there

& hoping it will come back, but knowing that it won't .

I feel that distance between two hearts is not an obstacle ,

rather a beautiful reminder of just how strong loving you can be.

Boy , just because I moved on doesn't mean I won't be here if you change your mind .

Alright , maybe I shouldn't fill myself with false hope that

you might just be missing me like I'm missing you ?

Remember we use to say "bye" in messages when we're paranoid ?

Here's something I've learnt . Good-bye's make you think .

They make you realize what you had and what you've lost

and most importantly what you've taken for granted.

I suppose it's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it,

but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.

I've told you before , you are part of me. That's the way it was meant to be.

Both of us are brought together for a reason , everything happens for a reason .

I strongly believe the reason that you and me were brought together

was because we complete one another. We fill in each other's missing spots with love.

And if someday god decides to tear us apart , I trust that there is a reason.

Cause if there is a reason for love, there is a reason for life beyond it
How i wish that i could hold you in my arms again . Kiss goodbye*

Reply taggy .

Carolyn - Okay jie , i've just send you my new number :)

Yizhen - Hello darling :D How're you ?

PS: I miss you & i miss your smile .

2009-09-01T13:47:00.000-07:00

You might feel like all of your emotions are going to spill out of your mouth at any moment today -- and so what if they do? You'll be surrounded by people who respect and admire you. There is nothing you can say or confess that will make them change how they feel about you! You have much too much good credit built up with them already. So don't be afraid to speak the truth today. People will listen and be affected by it. Compassion is all around you.

How can all these happen when i'm actually sleeping the whole day ?

You're all i think about day and night .
Tell me , how can i get you off my mind ?
Who are you talking to evernight till dawn ?
I know i look stupid here , but i really miss you so much .

Reply Taggs .
Carolyn - Ah jie , i will try to contact you asap okay :D

PS : I wanna see your sms soon .

Happy Teacher's Day !

2009-08-31T14:17:00.000-07:00

My social life is going to get a lot hotter a lot sooner than you anticipated!

Went Chaichee today .
Saw a number of ex students .
Saw Alvin kor , Jiahao & Pris darl ,

Freddie , Justus , Ronarld & etc .
Never bought gifts for our teachers ,
but wished them a happy teacher's day .
Talk to Mr Twang , i miss him uhs .
Left at 12 plus i guess .

Went out with Yielun , Melven , Weimin , Vincent
Yeeling & Joel to bugis .
Had our lunch at a coffee shop at Weimin's blk .
Than went to play pool .
Aftermath , went to iluma .
Ksuite ( kbox ) was so grand please .
The captain there gave us discounts .
But Weimin is not interested uh .
End up , we bused to tamp .
Went Vin house , wait for him to bath & stuff .
Than went T-mart to have our dinner .
No surprise , still seeing the same group of mart people .
Waited for Melven because he went Play for awhile .
Me , Joel , Vincent & Yielun waited for him .
All decided to go singing , so we went k-box downtown :D
Home sweet home :)

Connie - Meimei , imissyou too . Where got chio , ugly uh .

PS : I've never miss you so badly before , never .

The motivation was you .

2009-08-30T09:09:00.000-07:00

There's an old saying that insanity is repeating the same action and expecting a different result every time. Is there anything in your life that continually doesn't come up the way it should, and yet you keep going through the same motions? It's nice to live in hope, but at this point you may need to examine some of the deeper motivations behind your actions. In that way, you can change them.

Yeah , its time that i should start to look back the motivations i used to have .
Sometimes , its much tiring living with hope .
The more you hope for , the more disappointment you'll get .
That's according to my experience , otherwise it will just turn out right , i suppose ?

Played Majhong for the whole night till today late afternoon .
Oh my god , i'm going to school tomorrow and yet , i'm still wide awake !
I think i need some sleep now . Goodnight peeps :)

Reply Taggs .
Lihong - Miss ya too !
Liying - Ok baby :D
Kerien - Because i did not pay the bills . lol !

PS: It was you who made my dream came true .

Cycling :)

2009-08-28T18:55:00.000-07:00

Sleep all the way till 12 plus .

Me , Esther & Joel bathed ,

than met up with Wanli & Frederick .

Went to have our dinner at Prata shop :)

Thanks guys for the treat .

Thanks to my dumb ideas .

I wanted to go night cycling so badly .

So i suggested to go night cycling .

Its raining soon yet i still insisted to .

Felt so bad pulling them along ,

but still , i hope they enjoyed the trip :)

At first , Fred pillion Joe .

Me , Esther & Wanli are on ourselves .

Half way through , Fred pillion Esther .

Started raining badly , we suggested Fred pillion Wanli .

Because she was a safety and slow cyclist , haha !
When the rain stopped , Fred pillion Esther again .

So troublesome , pillion here and there -.-"

So , we cycled all the way to East coast from Tamp .

Went to The Light House , see sunrise .

Went back at 7 plus , had breakfast at Feifei Wanton .

Than cycled back again .

We felt like as if we're Zombies when we saw the sun .

All of us sweat like dog and very tiring with sour legs .

Reach Tamp at 9 , like finally . Lol !

We're planning to stay overnight over at East Coast tonight .

This shall be a memorable and enjoyable night !

Luckily i've got good tents , haha !

I'm gonna sleep now , damn tiring .

I'm sure my Esther is sleeping soundly now .

Alright , goodnight peeps !

Oh , if anyone TPS schoolmates/classmates is

going back to TPS for teacher's day , please let me know .

If not , i'll just be going down to Chaichee :)

Alright , chaos !

Reply Taggy .

Lihong - Relinked already :D

Jade;Unknown - Thanks :)

Kerien - I will i will . My phone line cut off already D:

PS : Enjoying simple pleasures of my day .

JOEL ~

2009-08-27T21:04:00.000-07:00

Just came back from rounding .
My rider rides a red colour kawa :)
I love the colour & eveything ! Love it !
Seriously enjoyed my day with the new peeps .
They're a joker , i swear .
Started playing the " You call what uh ?" game .
Guy:You call what uh ?
Girl: Hokkien Mee .
Guy: Oh . hi hokkien mee , my name is blahblahblah ~
We played this everywhere we go -.-"
Settled down at east coast aftermath .
Play murderer in the mac , we're laughing like crazy ~
They even sent us back to tamp .
So good of them uh , thanks guys !

Currently at Quek's house .
He cook for me sio , so sweet of him uh :)
Alright , chaos ! I'm gonna enjoy my food already ~

Lucky or not .

2009-08-27T13:46:00.000-07:00

Your good fortune is the best part of your life right now. Put it this way: if you bought a lottery ticket, you'd win the big jackpot -- or you'd fall into the arms of someone totally devastating. That doesn't mean you should look for patches of the sidewalk to fall over, however. Just proceed with your normal plans. Leave the lucky twists up to the cosmos.

Good fortune is on the way :)
Wheeee ~

Dedicated to stupid botak :D
Dont ever say you're not by my side .
You did , and you've always been good to me .
Even though its been so long since i've last
met you , we still keeps in contact .
Thats a good thing , so dont say emotional stuffs
to me anymore , or i'll hate you :)
The most important thing is , you're by my
side when i needed you most . Best friend we shall
be , forever it shall be :)
I'm sorry about that day , we met and you left .
Its not that i dont wanna see you , its someone else .
I dont want rumours to start spreading from her mouth .
You dont understand , and like you say , you dont wanna
know either . Remember , you do not come last :)

And as for you , i dont know what to say .
You've made me disappointed .
I wont regret for the decision i've made .
You dont regret too alright .
Find the long lasting partner okay , bye .

Reply taggy .
Kerien - Meet up on weekend k crazy women :)
Derrick - Stupid botak , thanks for everything .
Passerby - You're ?
Huiyu - Alright Babe :)
Alfie - What dead ! you die i also haven die uh ! Lol !
Joey - Haha , yeah . Teachers day ?

PS: Living the way i should be :)

SAKURA

2009-08-26T01:58:00.000-07:00

Okay, so you're not famous for being the type of person who conjures up Hallmark sentiments every time your mouth opens. You have other redeeming qualities -- among them, the ability to call a spade a spade. At the moment, however, you'll be amazed at just how poetically you'll describe that same spade. If you embarrass easily and you can't stand the thought of someone remembering you in this verbal condition, better swear off conversation entirely for at least the couple of days.

Went Sakura with Esther & co .
Had great fun there with them around !
They never fails to cheer me up , thanks sweeties :)
Joel Quek , i've finally meet up with him .
I'm like having a primary school gathering .
Started to contact all my primary school friends .
Missed them real much . Some people will name the S guy
out when they saw this . Yeah , that includes him laaaaa .
Dont get the wrong idea , i miss everyone :)

Alright , going out to meet my darlings already :)
Bye peeps !

Dreams .

2009-08-25T05:34:00.000-07:00

I never had a dream which is genuine in existence .
Because dreams do not come true as the way you wished for .
What's worse is , they made you feel real yet beyond reach .
Its takes you away from reality for a very compendious time .
I just hope for the most joyous dream everynight :)

Yes , i admit i treat people diversely because
of some reasons or i'll just treat them the way they treat me .
Some people just dont deserve to be respected but its not
up to us to decide they deserve it or not because people
do change after sometime . Everyone deserves a chance to
change for the better . Its not by repeating mistakes but
to learn from their own mistakes . This makes them a better person .
Logical enough ? People might not think about it .
Now , use this free time to think of the people around you .
The one you love the most & the one you hate the most .
Is the chance given to your love one to prove how much they
love you before you gave up on them ? Is the chance given to
someone you hate to prove that they've changed for the better ?

People , start to think for the people around you .
Dont just think for yourself . Stop that selfish thinking .
Its true that you live for yourself but think of others made
you happy at times too . Good and bad times are meant to be shared :)

PS: Live the way you wanted , at the same time , be considerate .

Captivating my heart .

2009-08-23T16:47:00.000-07:00

Omfg , look who's talking .
People who know you are telling me your shit .
Pointless wasting time blogging here and there .
You know what you're doing and i know what i've done too .
I dont have to explain and i dont owe you and explanation :)
F-off and shut up , bitch .

Went to Saigon with Esther and co this few days .
And we went to Pula Ubin with Alicia and same co .
Thats my first time there at that kind of timing , 3am ?
So cock -.-" Me and Alicia like cock la .
Scare of the stray dogs there . Thanks to the uncle there
who told us the stray dogs there bites ! Lol !
I was holding on to her wherever we go and whenever i
heard dogs barking ! Lol ! Im timid , i know la fuck .

Jess - Thanks babe , i'm alright , enjoying life :D chill ~
Hy - I'm fine :D Thanks babe ! How about you ?
Sandy - Thanks ling , who cares . Spammers are outdated already -.-"
Kerien - CW ! Miss you uh ! When are we gonna slack together ?
Esther - Be there when you fall . Thanks for everything :)
S - Thanks for tagging :D
Fuhao - Hello ! How's life in army ? :D

PS : You're nothing to me but a piece of shit .

A waste of my time !

2009-08-08T13:49:00.000-07:00

Nothing much to post :D
Maybe should start with the peeps i get to know at kbox :)
They're nice people , really nice people :)
No one , or shall i say no friends had ever
treated me this good , i swear .
They accompanied me when i'm "homeless"
They bought me breakfast/lunch/dinner when i'm hungry .
They sent me all the way to my doorstep .
They did everything that i've never expected them to .
Okay, i think only some people know what i meant .
Thanks guys , you guys are the best okay ! iloveyou :)

Okay , i'm gonna waste my time on some people , again .
Why must it be the same people ?
Once i dislike you , whatever you do still piss me off :)
Readers can skip the part below , waste of your time .
Its for some people and they know who they are .

For the BOTH of you :)
I dont even have to mention who .
If you happen to passby my blog , this is for the BOTH of you .

PERSON no.1 : I dont wanna give you names , because i will
never wanna lower myself to such people like you :)
Firstly , i've started to dislike you when we dont even know
one another . Its not some dumb ideas that's coming
out of your brain , little kid . Dont act like you know me -.-"
If he's yours , no one can ever snatch him away .
I've never regretted for the things i've decided o anyway .
So , please saying that people wanna snatch your guy -.-"
There's not only ONE GUY in the whole bloody world ?
He loves you , and you loved him , thats all you need to know .
Stay out of my business , because , you're just an outsider , mind you .

PERSON no.2: Hello , get this freaking thingy out of your mind .
Ask him not to contact me if you have the ability to control your guy :)
If not , get things clear if you wanna last long .
Its just a piece of advice to you .
Heed my advice or not , its up to you .
Ask him to be truthful to you .
Dont ever cry over spilled milk , pointless uh :D
Some people there dont even buy your story .
You know something ? You've became the joke in our
conversations , but who cares anyway :)
Same for you , i wont give you names too !
Oh , last thing , acting pathetic makes you no good .

Unhappy about anything ?
Find me uh :D Can text me if you want .
Oh sorry uh , i've forgeotten that you guys are thick-skinned
and admit that the one i'm mentioning its you . HAHA !
Look , i dont give a damn to LITTLE KIDS .
Please act like your age , bitching about people in this century ?
Oh my god , look who's alking big here . Grow up please !

Reply taggs :D
Cazarine - You dont know die to where le lo , lols !
Pb - Haha , who cares about them ? Thanks for tagging :D
Carol - Jie , i'm not busy la :D Working mahs !
Sandy - Okay ling , i wont forget you !
Jon - Sorry best , relink you again k ? Not free uh . Lol !

Bewildering mind .

2009-07-31T03:34:00.000-07:00

Friends can be more than partners for good times and giggles -- they can be the greatest teachers you will ever meet in your life. But to learn their lessons, you have to listen without getting defensive. Remember that when someone you trust offers you some honest (if a bit painful) advice today. Upon hearing what they have to say, don't get defensive and tell them to mind their own business. Hear them out.

To me , making new friends is what i need now .?
I can no longer trust anyone anymore .
Some people who might seems close to me are
so hypocritical to me now . I dont wish to say who .
I dont know why , dont bother to ask me why .

This few days , have not been sleeping well .
Some problems running through my heads .
I dont know what is it that is bothering me .
Money ? Friendship ? Family problems ? Relationship ?
I dont know . Omg , problems are hunting me or
m i just thinking too much ?

Whatever it is , i dont wanna get involved in anything else .
Except things that is about me , myself & i .
This is the only way to keep myself away from getting into
troubles and involved in things i should not get involved into .

You made me lost my way .
You lead me the way and it was halfway through .
You were the strength that kept me going on .
You told me , if i kept waiting , you would be there .
I hope what you say was true , love you ~

Reply Taggies :D
Jess - Thanks :D
Carolyn - Jie , i cant be bothered by that ass -.-" Lols !

2009-07-28T12:37:00.000-07:00

You're feeling benevolent, generous and extremely charitable toward your fellows. So no matter what anyone needs, you'll be only too happy to do whatever you can to help. That's a rare and wonderful gift that will be much appreciated right about now -- because there could be a few folks out there who won't be at all sympathetic to anyone else's needs. Go ahead. Get out there and spread your good feelings around.

No time to blog , sorry peeps .
Reply taggies ~
Sayhaw - Ok ok :D
Serene - sure i will , sweetie :D Love ya .
LWK - Lol , bhb sia ~ How you found my blog ?!
HAHA ! - Laojie , you have name not ?! Meet soon :D
Carol - sure jie , see you soon okay :)

Lucky or unlucky ?

2009-07-24T01:30:00.000-07:00

Your Tarot reading drew the Devil card which foretells a series of unexpected events. A sudden change in your life is coming, and the ending of a friendship is near. Loss of money during this time is possible and the disruption from these event's will play havocked on your life. But do not fear, in time these event's will pass, and you will adapt to the new changes in your life. Patience and a calm attitude will help with the transfer into these new changes.

My life had already started changing when i'm seperated with my family .
Friendship , i had lost one , but its the past and its no longer the issue anymore .
I dont even have the money to loss -.-"
I hope i would be able to adapt the new changes made in my life .

Count yourself lucky or unlucky , i don't know .
Some strangers told me that my ex is a lucky
guy because someone is still waiting for him .
But , i don't know if this is something good to you ?
All these while , we kept in contact .
There's times we both had arguments .
There's times when you made me cried .
There's times you even lied .
But let me tell you , i cherished all the time we shared .
Feelings are telling me that we're gonna patch up .
But , are we both well prepared ? I hope so .

Do you still remember what kind of girlfriend m i ?
She is someone who sticks to her bf a lot .
She hate it when other girls looks at her bf .
She need to meet up her bf as many days as possible .
She rely on her bf totally .
She need her bf to make her sleep in the night .
She will do anything for him .
She hate it when he lies .
She love it when he brings her out .
She is selfish and doesn't shares her bf with his friends .
She hate it when her bf says sorry all the time .
She is stubborn and want things her way .
She will stand by you no matter you're in the wrong .
Do you still remember ?

DERRICK CHAY botak already :)
You this stupid boom boom ~
No feel & no tempo , sigh .
Suddenly miss the words you said .
Miss the days you accompany me and took care of me . Xie xie ni !
Thanks for asking Ah Huat to take care of me .
I know how to take care of myself , 18 already uh !
Dont worry when you're in NS , i'll be fine :D
Wo shi shi jie shang zui qiang de CLARISSA !
Lol , take care when you're inside k , botak !
We will miss you for sure :)

Reply Taggies .
Yizhen - Thanks , i'll be fine soon :D
Lihong - Real soon uh ~

Life's better without you .

2009-07-22T19:29:00.000-07:00

Took plenty of time to think .
Think of the decision we've made .
And i've got a good news to share with you .
I've no regrets :D And i'm living well without you !
Luckilly i've made the right choice or not i will be
the most dopey person in the whole wide world -.-"

I cried today , and i'm feeling better after crying .
Seriously i dont know the reason why i cried .
But all i know was , i felt better , thats what i need .
Thanks Ivan for making me smile :D
Thanks those who cared and look for me .

Yes , my bill exploded to hundred plus .
Maybe going for an interview today ?
I'm going to work at K-box receptionist :)
Alright , i've nothing to post about .

Oh , i've something to tell two of my friends .
For the guy , i'm sorry for the things i've said
and the things i've been assuming . But , if you
dont like her , dont give her false hope . Just tell her
nicely that you both are just pure friends .
She will understand , trust me .
As for the girl , i have nothing to tell you .
But its pretty obvious that dont be toyed by him .
Just look forward without him . Sometimes , its
better to let go and look for someone better .
Choices are still up to you . Thats it :)

Im missing you .
I've think alot , and counting the weeks
i've not been seeing you .
I wanna bring my ah ma out and eat .
But i want you to come along ok ! Loveyou .

Reply taggies .
Yizhen - Sorry uh babe , linked you already .
Huifang - Hello .
Serene - Thanks sweetie , feeling kinda stress uh . Sigh .
Erwin - Nah , its ok . You owe me one ! Lol !

PS : I'll be the shadow of yours .

2009-07-21T12:51:00.000-07:00

Underestimating yourself is silly. Be honest. You're more than capable of this.
In a current power struggle, you might be focused on winning, but are you really seeing what's at stake? Right now it's not about winning or losing -- it's about achieving the best possible outcome. And when you realize what the best outcome is, you may realize that it's time to stop pushing against your opponent and start working with them. Making a compromise will save you a lot of stress, a lot of time and a lot of energy. You are stronger when you team up with someone.

I dont underestimate myself :)
And i know i'm capable of doing things better than others
Work with my opponent ? Errrrr , see how luhs

Today's Roller-blading outing was postponed -.-"
Thanks to some people , so turn off luhs .
But , whatever it is , next time i shall go with
people who wanted to go , instead of asking those
who didnt kept their promise to tag along , goddamnit !

Taggs reply .
Lihong - Yes , i will text you very very soon baby !
Sayhaw - Better make youself free , i dont care uh !
Serene - I'm fine , just feeling abit moodless sometimes out of sudden ?
Kerien - LOVE YOU TOO !

SINHUI IS SICK !

2009-07-20T20:52:00.001-07:00

Just accompanied Sinhui to consult a doctor .
And , she's supposed to stay at home for days .
If me and ah dai is gonna fall sick , thanks to her .
Lols , we're such a good friend ! Early in the morning ,
accompanied her all the way to the clinic , under the hot
weather ! She must be touched and fortunate to have this
kind of friends :D LOL ! Keep praising ourselves uh .
Anw , get well soon Sinhui :) IF we're free , will drop
by your house , please stop dreaming that we will
go over tonight ! Lol , fake :X Take care :)

Going roller-blading at Pasir Ris park !
Hope can bargain with the uncle :D Cheapest as possible :)
Getting prepared now :D Ciaos !

Will update soon if possible :)

2009-07-20T17:09:00.000-07:00

Uneasy energy is circulating around your pets right now, so it might be a good idea to schedule a veterinarian appointment for your favorite furry friend. There's no need to worry just yet, so don't let your fears stand in the way of your focusing on other important areas of your life. Stop thinking so much about things you cannot control. Dwelling on your fears or worries is a complete waste of energy and something you need to get out of the habit of doing.

Of course i wont let my fears stand in my way !
I've got better things to do , rather than abominate someone :)
Waste of my time and energy , omfg .

Having the urge to be with you ,
and get totally committed in the relationship .
I dont wish to adjournment all this but beginning .
We both might have different lifestyle now but that
isnt the problem because we have to learn to manage our
own time . We will not know the answers until we try .

But will conciliating makes us further than before ?
But still , i'm waiting for you to ask me that question ..

Finally ,
taggs are replied :D
BAOBAO-Haha ! Thanks meimei :D
Lihong - Baby , i need a heart-to-heart talk ! *problematic*
Yizhen - I'm sorry i left out yours ! Give me the link k , sorry darling !
Huiyu - Lol , i miss LCS too much maybe ? Lol !
Serene - How're you ? Take care uh !
Cazarine - Yes , you better meet me up soon , so long already eh !
Kerien - CRAZY WOMEN , love you to bits :D HAHA !
Sayhaw - You CLARISSA erzi lehs , of course aizai :D faster meet wo uh !

To : AH LIAN:LAO JIE ! (Special enough ?!)
You very funny , got name dont wanna put -.-" Meet me again soon uh !
Hello Laojie , i did not bad mouth already la ! Dont keep say me la you ! Must show
good example to your children , go laser all your tattoo la ! HAHA ! Fake :X
You say me some more , i put your "body arts" in my blog uh ! LOL !
Your house got nothing but alot of knife & swords -.-" play hide and seek
anytime can kill people lehs laojie ! And your house got children , better
keep it from their reach la , bad mother ! And , hope you enjoy yourself
that day the celebration we did for you . I'm sorry that i did not attend .
Too many hooligan already , i good girl :) Lol , no la , cause "HE" dont like
me going this kind of places . See , i'm a good girlfriend unlike you :X
okay la , your reply very long siol ~ Laojie , love and misses !

PS : Waiting for your kiss in the night .

DISAPPOINTMENT

2009-07-19T06:26:00.000-07:00

Went all the way to Somerset just to repair my iPhone .
Thought it was still under warranty , so it would be free of charge ?
But , bloody hell , they don't know how to repair and expect me to
pay $350 to replace for a brand new set . Bloody hell expensive !
So , obviously , I've wasted my trip there with Ah Dai -.-"

You lied to me today .
I asked you twice and yet you still lied .
I really don't see the point of you lying to me .
But , you told me you have your reasons for lying .
You know i hate liars and yet you still lied .
I can only say I'm disappointed but end up i still
forgives you . Hopefully history don't repeats again .
Imisstheoldyouwherethereisjustyou&me~

Was feeling damn sleepy the whole day .
I just cant get enough sleep . I need more hours
of sleep than before . Half non-human already -.-"
Okay , random . I'm getting bored nowwwwww..

Saw today's newspaper .
My uncle is HIV positive , and I'm getting worried .
The words he told the reporter made me teared badly in
the bus , like a retarded . " I'm afraid i will not get to touch
my nephew and niece if i broke out this news to them "
What is this ? You're my uncle , i will never stay away
from you like how others did ! Some people stay in the car
till my uncle walk pass the car park . Some people wont take
the same lift as him . But there's someone who gave him a hug
which made him touched . I will give you a hug when i sees you :)
Don't worry and everything will be fine , live to the fullest k ! Jy !

Tags will be reply late . I cant see the tagboard -.-"

PS : Baby , I wanna shout it out loud to you .

Complicated .

2009-07-17T02:56:00.000-07:00

I shouldnt blame you for your attitude .
But , you're the one who says that we should
stop everything once and for all . Speechless .
Everything is over , pointless talking about it .
Whatever it is , take good care .

Priscilla Chow , take care of yourself okay ?
Dont worry because everything will be fine :)
Just text him if you want to , friends only what .
Nothing wrong right ? No motives right ? Chill ~

Hey , no point recriminate in blogs .
You know what you did and thats enough .
Dont have to get so maddened over it .
The curse and swear , makes you no good too .

Reply Taggies .
Lihong - Baby , thanks and chill k !
Serene - Hmm , wasted la ..
Juemins - Yes , when when when ? lol !
Huiyu - I'm not good ..

Aggrieve

2009-07-16T02:49:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry that i've to aggrieve you in such a way .
But see it at a brighter side that we could be the
very best friends instead of being together .
We can share everything together as friends .
But looking at the experience , see those who're in
a relationship ? They're always crying over spilled milk .
What for ? Pointless right ? Friends are something that
last forever even though not all . But it takes a life spend to
find the right one to be with you till the end .
Hope you know what i mean , stay happy .

Lihong text me when she know how depressed &
discourage m i . Thanks for the concern :D
And she said something " Because i know my dear
baby wont approach people even she needs people "
She asked me not to give up , i wish i could hold back .
But he left me without a word . He says it my fault .

Say you're sorry
That face of an angel comes out
Just when you need it to
As I pace back and forth all this time
'Cause
I honestly believed in you
Holdin' on,
The days drag on
Stupid girl
I should have known, I should have known

That I'm not a princess
This ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood,
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now its too late for you and your White Horse,
To come around.

Maybe I was naive,
Got lost in your eyes
I never really had a chance.
My mistake, I didn't know to be in love you had to fight to have the upperhand.
I had so many dreams about you and me.
Happy endings;
Now I know

I'm not a princess
This ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood,
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down.
Now its too late for you and your White Horse,
To come around.

And there you are on your knees
Begging for forgiveness,
Begging for me
Just like I always wanted,
But I'm so sorry

Cause Im not your princess
This aint a fairytale
Im gonna find someone, Some day
Who might actually treat me well.
This is a big world,
That was a small town
There in my rearview mirror,
Disappearing now.
And it's too late for you and your White Horse,
Now its too late for you and your White Horse
To catch me now.

Oh whoa whoa whoa-oh
Try and catch me now
Whoa-Oh
It's too late
To catch me now.

Taggs replied .
Kerien - Thanks la my crazywomen :D Love you to the max ~
Juemins - Thanks babe, i'll be seeing you soon right ? :)

PS: You dont have to call , anymore .

"Once broken , consider sold"

2009-07-15T14:47:00.001-07:00

I admit what I've done/said .

If this continues , we can never stop controverting one another .

They dislike me & we detest her or whatsoever .
Wanna know why are we so concern about it ?
Because we care . If we cant be bothered who dislike who &
who detest who , we wont even bother explaining .
There's one thing that we should confess is ,
our friendship is very fragile . "Once broken , consider sold"

After its broken , it will never be as perfect as it was once before .
But as for now , I've made up my mind .
I know that nothing last forever but i need to make this friendship last
because even though they might not need me but i
know i need them and i can be there when they need me .
I might not be the one they first to think of but at least
when everyone leaves them alone , i can be there .
I asked them this question " Who is more important ?"
A very convincing answer , equally important .
Take it as a vow , cherish this friendship till the end .
But if one fine day , one cant take it anymore ,
i promise i wont be so selfish and stubborn , we'll let it go .

If you're alone, I'll be your shadow.
If you want to cry, I'll be your shoulder.
If you want a hug, I'll be your pillow.
If you need to be happy, I'll be your smile.
But anytime you need a friend, I'll just be me.
When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives mean
the most to us, we often find that it is those who,
instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures,
have chosen rather to share our pain and touch
our wounds with a warm and tender hand.
The friend who can be silent with us in a moment
of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an
hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing,
not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of
our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares.

Tags replied
Sayhaw - You better meet up soon , i'm gonna whack you !
Liying - Yes , i want it too ! LOL !
Kerien - Haha , i'm not lying la CRAZYWOMEN , misses !
Serene - Why let go such a good bf ? Lol .
Juemins - Thanks babe , meet me soon please :)
Cazarine - Sorry baby , bill exploded uh . Call me ok :D

PS: Friendship isn't a big thing , it's a million little things .

Feelings that i cant hold back no more .

2009-07-14T07:47:00.000-07:00

It's not exactly that you're aiming to aggravate everyone you cross paths with, especially the ones you love. The situation is this: you just can't hold back your feelings and more importantly, your ideas. So if someone asks for your opinion, why bother trying to pretend that you can hold back? Just issue a disclaimer before you start to speak. Once they pick their jaw up from the floor, they'll be fine with it.

Yes , i cant hold back my feelings anymore .
But seriously speaking , who cares ?!
How i wish i could try to pretend that i can hold back ?
But whatever is it , i just wish to let it go .
Even though i know i cant , i still have to try :)
Clarissa will get over it ! jiayou , Jiayou JIAYOU !

I wont be the fool again .
Leaving in the lifeless world you left behind .
I wanna walk out of it , and i believe i can .
Dont look down on me because i know i can .
I've a very strong feeling i can get over it !
Rahhs , i'm ranting here like nobody's business :)

PS: TELL HER , SHE CAN DO IT :D

DERRICK'S BACK :D

2009-07-14T05:20:00.000-07:00

OKAY , I HAVE SOMETHING TO ANNOUNCE :D
DERRICK CHAY CHI MING IS BACK FROM VIETNAM ! LOL !

Everthing is still the same .

2009-07-13T21:24:00.000-07:00

Today's the 14th .
And everything is still the same .
No changes , everything remains the same .
What changes can i expect from him ? Nothing .

Maybe i should just moved on .
Everything seems to be my fault , my bad .
Its not that i dont trust you , i just dont know how to .
I wont dare to say that there's no changes in me .
But the cause of these changes was you .
And the cause of your changes was me .
So we cant blame one another for the changes made in us .
But have you ever think that whats the best for us ? No .
Have you made use of the days to think for us ? No .
You didnt care and act like nothing had happen .
You say that you're sick and tired , what about me ?
Having to accept that you have a girl as a BEST FRIEND ,
what can i do or what can i say ? I dont have the guts to say NO .
I can only helplessly accept that you have a girl as a best friend ..
What a wishful thinking that accepting your changes will make
you feel that you're still loved dearly by me regardless how much
changes you've made . You've made me feel like a fool once again .

Alright , i shouldnt rant about my BGR thingy in my blog .
But thats the only thing that is keeping my blog alive ?
I see no point having people to view this lifeless blog anw .
Shall change my link without having anyone to view it .
Things are getting out of my hands and its killing me .

People lived well without me .
So why shall i care about them so much ?
Clarissa has to move on without them .
Sometimes , she has no choice but to leave .
Leave their world and return to her own lifeless world .
But , she cant bear to put them down and she hopes
that one fine day , they will see the importance of her .

Mummy , i know that sometimes i've made you worried sick .
But now , its my turn to take care of you .
I know i'm not capable of doing anything .
But be sure that i can be there for you if you ever need one .
Dont thank me , just because i'm understanding .
I can say most of the guys made us teared so much for
them . I can tell you , they feel nothing , so save it .
Sharing him with someone else ?!
Ask him eat shit la , nbcb . Let him go before i see him .
I really dont wish to say this but dont ever force me .
Or not he shall bear the consequences of what he did to me .

I dont wish to mention this . But ask him to get his own life .
If he still continue to harass you or expect anything out of you , he'll get it .

I will do anything to make him leave this world , BASTARD !

Reply taggies .
Liying - Haha , sweet right ?! Lol , takecare too uh !
Cazarine - You'll be shock to see the changes made in him . Relinked :)
Kerien - HAHA , i'm not drunk ! CRAZY WOMEN , ILOVEYOU !
Jess - Lol , how i wish i can ..
Serene - Oh , thats my longest ex bf . Lol , aiyo about you & ah dai lo ..
Sayhaw - Erzi wanna die liaos ! I die you also haven die uh ! RAHH !
Huiyu - Yeah , you dont know mehs ? Why sad face ?!
Jas- HAHA , next time just call out to me okay ?! Loves .

PS: I know who are my real friends . Dont act as if you are .

Thats life .

2009-07-11T15:08:00.000-07:00

We've to overcome everything by ourselves .
That's when friends appear in our everyday life to
go through all these with me :) Million thanks to them !
Going through everything with me meaning ..
When i cry , they lend me a shoulder to cry on .
When i fall , they reach out a hand for me to hold on .
When I'm vexed , they lend me a listening ear .
When I'm in trouble , they'll rush down to make sure I'm alright .
When i say "thank you" , they would reply , "what are friends for "
Friends come and go , BUT only true friends stay :)
Three important thing in life , Family , Friends & Boyfriend !
The rest , it does not matter that much . They are the ones
i cant live without and i'll be nothing without them :D

Everyone asked ,
" Eh clar , why dont look for a boyfriend ?"
Yes , seeing other people having a boyfriend to take care
of and being able to take care of their boyfriend , indeed i
envy them . But whats the point of finding a boyfriend when
you know you cant give them what they want ? Useless bum .
I'm not finding for a boyfriend , but i'm waiting for someone to change .

This will be a long wordy compo about HIM . Close it if you're not interested .

He's someone who will spend his time on his girlfriend .
He's someone and the only one who can make me smile without
saying anything when i seriously broke down and cry .
He's someone that when we're together , he's my full time lover and
a part time friend . He listens to whatever i wanna say even though
he's sleepy . He hugged me tight when he sees me crying for him .
And he even cried in front of me just because his heart hurts seeing me
teared so much for him . He bought me meals when i'm lazy to walk down
to the nearest coffee shop to buy it myself . He could stared at me sleeping
the whole day taking care of me , changing my towel for me when i'm sick .
He treated my family like his own and he concerns about them alot .
He's forever worrying for me , more than my family . He's very protective
towards me with other guys . He is aint a gangster or someone who could fight ,
but when someone provokes me , he'll still stand in front of me & protects me :D
He's someone who has been with me for years but now , he've changed .
I hope that , one day , when he turns around , knowing i still love him so much ,
he'll go back to the past where there's just you & me . My heart hurts seeing the
changes you've made within this year . You're perfect in my eyes and thats why
i love you . No one will ever love you more than i do because i know i'm not a
perfect girlfriend yet i'm willing to change for you . Just for you baby , i love you .

Alright , eyes are closing .
Currently staying over at Sinhui's house .
She's sleeping like a pigg now .
Lols , i shall catch some sleep too .
Goodnight people :D

Reply Taggies .
Kerien - Lol , they have no life ma . Loves !
Sayhaw - I thought my erzi die liaos ! So long never contact me ~
Jas - Lols , should call out for me next time la :D

PS: Memories are there , i hope the feelings are still there .

Having so much say , watching you walk away .

2009-07-11T00:42:00.000-07:00

Went Kbox with Shery Darling :D
She's f-funny i swear !
She imitate M J -.-" Like so wtf ?
What crazy women , look who's the crazy women .
"NEVER BELIEVE WHATEVER SHE SAY"

This is our new slogan of the day ? Damn it _|_!

Just wanna tell you ,
Regretted for telling you so much .
And you even bad-mouthed me ?
Some people are just meant not to be trusted .
But i trusted you , how can you ever do that to me ?
You made me feel like an idiot la fuck !
Sharing my things with you made you
having a chance to bad-mouthed behind my back ?
And you even put words in other people's mouth , stop it la !
And please la , put words in a nicer tone if you want people
to stand in your shoe and think for you . Dont keep expecting
people to change for you , look into the mirror and you'll
see yourself staying the same and not changing -.-"
I've finish what i wanna say , its up to you to do whatever you want .

Hoegarden is nice but it isnt very special too .
Thanks Dai & Derrick for counseling me .
I dont know why i just burst into tears in front
of them . I know i've made a fool out of myself .
Thanks for saying that you guys are willingly to
listen and help me out , thanks guys ! :D

The date14th is drawing near .
This date meant alot to me .
I just heard that there's a couple engaged in our school .
I was wondering which idiots . But thats true love .
This couple was in Chaichee 10 years ago .
The were dating since then .
Till now they're getting married !
So , they intended to engaged in the school to remind themselves
back to the past :D Aint they sweet ?! I wanna be like them ! HAHA !

Reply Taggies .
30th june - Omg , f-lame -.-"
TMS - You're ? Thanks anw !
Tracy - HAH , take care of yourself ok :D
Cazarine - Love you too baby !
Someone - Thanks alot !
.- You're ?
Passerby- clar_mvplover@hotmail.com
Lihong - Baby , hack care those idiotic spammers :D
Jas - Is it ? Why never call me la :(
Pasby - Thanks for your comment , sluttttt :D
Deep - HAH , thanks !
Kerien - Ok :D
Joel - Ok la , i remember you lehs .eh , invite me ! clar_mvplover@hotmail.com
Serene - Lol , sweetie uh , aiyoooo .

PS: I'll do whatever we like , it doesnt concerns you !

St James :D

2009-07-05T15:11:00.000-07:00

If you don't feel extremely self-confident right now, ask yourself what you are doing to test yourself. By facing a difficult challenge, you can prove to yourself how special you are. Even if you don't succeed, the act of facing a fear or trying to climb an especially tall mountain alone will go a long way toward making you see that you are capable of doing just about anything. In fact, you are capable of doing more than most! Dig down deep and wake up some of your slumbering ambitions.

Yes , i have very low confidence in whatever thing i'm doing to test myself .
How special m i ? Nothing special .
I am capable of doing better ? I dont think so .
Let me tell you something , its BULLSHIT ~

I'm gonna do nothing from today .
Sick and tired of trying so hard .
I just feel that , its time you should do something .
I dont wanna be the one always craking my head .
Its your turn . Baby , tell me you love me and need me
is not enough . Actions speaks louder than words .

Reply taggies .
Juemins - Sick and tired already right ? Sigh . We're on the same boat .
Lihong - HAHA , you deserve it baby :D
Someone - Thanks :)
Derrick -Lol , whats that ?
Sinhui - HAHA , i'll upload soon babe . No iphone cable right now .

PS: You dont know how much i need you .

Friends are the family i've choosen .

2009-07-03T09:42:00.000-07:00

All those rumors about your sign being cold, aloof and detached? Untrue. Totally untrue. The stuff about your being objective, impartial and incapable of prejudice? Absolutely true. You're about to prove all that and more to anyone who's willing to listen, and even to some who aren't. You're in the mood for romance, and while your style of wooing doesn't usually involve a Hallmark card or a dozen roses, whomever you're working your magic on won't soon forget it.

Today went Toa Payoh .
Giving out flyers isnt as easy as i imagine .
And whats more is i still have to beg them
to take the flyers -.-" Damn it .
Usually when people give out flyers ,
me myself also wont bother to take -.-"
Now , i know the feeling of how the flyer distributor
thinks , damn pek chek ! Lol !
So , next time if i ever were to ask to take the flyers ,
i will just smile and take :) Lol !
So people , take the flyers as much as possible .
Help them to end work early ! Lol !
Tomorrow will be working there again uh . Sians .

Baby Lihong , thanks :)
A big hug to you uh !
Thanks for telling me things like
you will listen to what i wanna say before you
say a thing . Like what i've told you in the msges ,
your words truely touched my heart :)
Its been so long that anyone ever say that to me .
LCS was the first , now its you :)
Million thanks to YEO LIHONG :)
I love her laaaaa ! ( Baby , touched to see this uh ? HAHA !)

Even though i might still think alot .
But i believe , soon , everything will be fine .
Thinking negatively is to prepare for the worse .
Positvely is to keep myself not to think too much .
So , tell me , what should i do ? Nothing ? Sighh !

Reply taggies .
Marcus - See you guys soon uh :)
Lihong - Thanks baby , loves you !
Juemins - Huh ? What happen ? Tell me tell me , worried uh !
Yizhen - Thanks :) I'll be fine soon !

PS :My life had changed , negatively .

Great talk :D

2009-07-02T12:37:00.001-07:00

Baby Leelian came down to find me :D
Went back to Mart with Sinhui & Leelian .
Talk for hours . About things that happen
during the olden days in school . Damn funny .
And gossip abit uh . Lol ~ Secret ..

Now currently at Leelian Baby's house .
Blogging , surfing the net etc .
Tomorrow both of us going to work :D
But before that going to visit someone , secret ..

The depress feeling came back out of sudden whenever i'm alone .
Like out of sudden , will think about family problems .
They're facing problems where we will never be able
to help . I feel damn heart ache seeing the pain and the
things they're suffering . I just pray hard that they will
go through this soon . And i wont leave them alone .
Even though i might have no house to stay , i'm still strong (:
I believe , i will be able to go through this with them .
Clarissa , you must stay strong :D

Today had a small tiff with baby .
Guess i'm the one who throw my temper .
Sorry baby , my bad .
I just dont how to communicate with you .
If i dont text you , you say i dont care .
If i text you , you reply me so short .
Everthing seems like , its my fault .
Thats why i say , if you wanna leave me , go ahead .
I'm tired of trying everything i could .
There is nothing i could do anymore i guess .
you make me feel like giving up .
Giving up the whole world because of you .
But , guess what , you totally have no time for me .
The last chance , did you cherished it ?
Think about it , think for us & tell me k .

Reply Taggies .
Lihong - Baby , i'm so f-stress laaaaa .
Jiahui - Relinked already oh :D

Feeling weirdly overemotional .

2009-07-01T08:50:00.000-07:00

Today's momentum is making it seem all the more urgent to get the show on the road. Now this could mean that you're preparing to storm into your boss's office in the morning and make some demands -- but think about that. You know how authority figures react to ultimatums, right? And it's not usually all that well, is it? Consider a subtler tactic.

Yes , feeling weirdly overemotional
I've tried to hide my feelings already .
But some people , who're clever enough to see the
changes in me . I'm trying hard to find out who's clarissa .

Baby , sometimes you treat me good , sometime bad .
I wonder , do you really loves me ? Sigh .
I'm the one putting in the effort , what about you ?
You make me hate myself even more , damn it .

Reply Taggies .
Carol - No la ah jie , we're close friends :)
Juemins - Thanks honey , loves you !
Yizhen - Nope , close friends only my dear .
Marcus - Lol , i will try to sponsor more k ! Lol ~
Lihong - Okay , wait i pay my bills jiu sms you k . Sigh .

PS: I wonder how & i wonder why .

Feelings .

2009-06-30T09:51:00.000-07:00

A loved one you've been thinking about fondly for some time has finally come around -- at least, it seems that way. There are several roadblocks in their way, however, many of which won't move aside easily. The hard part will be overcoming your urge to clear their way without enlisting any help at all from them. The harder part is the absolute necessity of letting go so they can make this happen alone -- which is what really counts.

Writing out my feelings in my blog did accommodate today :)
Feeling meagerly better ? But still feeling abit downcast .
I wanna laugh like how i use to , but how ?
I guess Jasmine gave me the Little Miss Sunshine didnt do her job .
And Weihow gave me the Mr Happy , also not doing his job .
The smile on their face is forever there , but where's mine ?
Where is the smile , the laugh , the love ?

Okay , i know i look sort of bimbo here ~
And all the colourings in my wording , cool huh :)
Seriously , its time for a heart-to-heart talk .
Or not the bomb inside of me , is gonna explode anytime !
Just someone who can keep quite & listen to what i wanna say
without commenting about it because i know i will blowup and
start saying nasty words . Clarissa dont know how to appreciate
good people , thats why she lost some of her heart-to-heart talk friends .
But i cant hold on to the past because they have simple hack care and moved
on much much earlier than me that i can just fcuk-off from their lives .
No one to blame , i'm the one causing all these to happen .
She's lazy to use her brain and think why she's drowning in the past .
save her , save HER , SAVE HER !

Dear baby ,
thanks for telling me that you will be there .
Thanks for expressing adoration to Clarissa .
You made her think that she's special :)
And you know , she love love love love you beri muchie !
I'm started to think , what m i gonna do without you ?
And baby , i foresee that you will be mine forever ! HAHA :D
She's gonna cling on to you wherever you go , so be prepared to
bring a burden wherever you go :) Count yourself unlucky ?
Even though at any point of time you're gonna throw me aside ,
i'll do whatever it takes to get you back , i dont care (cries) !
You can say i dont look like an Eighteen years old girl , but you
still can denied that i'm officially eighteen okay my dear :))
Baby , remember this , Clarissa loves you :)
Side by side or miles apart , i'm always forever close to your heart !

Reply taggies .
Marcus - Lol , oh ya , Ah Ong now .. Burn more , i sponsor :))
Cazarine - Okay , please meet me soon uhhhh !
Xinhui - Okay babe , link up too !
Lihong - I wanna text you soon baby .
Huiyu - Relinked already :)

PS: People says that good guys are hard to find , thats because the best is mine :)

Pictures finally uploaded :)

2009-06-30T09:30:00.000-07:00

This is Baby;Xinyi . My girlfriend :)

Me , my zilians photos :)

This is my Ah lian; LeeLian . She's my Baby :)

Life's like that .

2009-06-30T00:26:00.000-07:00

Wanted to upload photos taken with Sinhui & Leelian .
But currently no cable , other day then .

Babe uh , dont worry la .
Caught smoking might be serious ,
but dont think so much .
By thinking so much doesnt help .
Anthing just text me k ?
Everything will be fine :)

I'm still feeling abit moody and down .
But there's nothing i can do but
to pretend to put a smile on my
face wherever i go . I really thank
some people who still make the
effort to make me smile even though
i look so debilitated . Sorry guys .
No worries , i will be fine soon .
CLARISSA IS STRONG ! <3

Will try to update because nothing special to blog .

Oh ya , this is for you . Nbcb !
Since when did i say i wanna meet you ?
And you even said i gave you my number -,-"
Thats even more ridiculous !
If you have my number than why didnt you call me ?
Please la , wanna hong uh , you've find the wrong target !
Fuckkkkkkkkxxxxx offffff ~

Reply Taggies .
Marcus - HAHA , funny uh , tell ah loke first .
Lihong - Lol , baby take care uh , loves ! who bully you call me uh ! :)
Sandy - anything , just text me or call me :)